what to say.

a blog a blog a blog.

somehow, there are things i wanna post about but cant coz then secret terbongkar then i ma cannot look at ppl d.

but this is troubling me so much. i HAVE to say something........

but i CANT!!!
gahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
and i cant use differnt names either coz one way or another, smart ppl will figure it out too.

so what am i supposed to do now?
i feel like crying out loud now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

haih
you know sometimes to like someone is so hard. there are so many sungai and lauts to mengharungi. and if you're strong, you stay through till the end and if you're not, then you just give up. but sometimes it sso hard to move on. sometimes you dont get what you want, and just when you thought things were going well, and getting better, its RIPPED AWAY from you, leaving you standing there, helpless. and it hurts so much, you can literally feel it. nights are spent sleepless and troubled, pillows are soaked with tears and we just wonder why god would let this happen, why would god let me hurt so much inside when he loves me so much?

and its at THIS time, that we have to remind ourselves, that no matter what we go through, no matter what god puts us through, its all for the good. and just like daniel said so in service just now, even through bad times, god is still transforming us to be like him, oh wait, the bible says that. haha. kays,its just, in times like this we have to trust that whatever god is putting us through is for our own good and thats its the best for us, because GOD knows whats best for us. and through all these hurt and times of trials we go through, god teaches us lessons, lessons for life, he strenghtens us, he strengthens our faith in him.

i think im really writing this post to remind myself actually, that god has his plans for my life, and even through all these bad times, something good is gonna come out of it, and i still have hope for the better, that things will turn out right, and that i have to continue praying that god will work his wonder.

and sometimes ppl wonder why even though god loves us, but still puts us through so much, like for example for some ppl, a fatal disease, or cancer, a broken leg, a paralysed body, a dying heart, failing lungs.......etc. not just physical la. im not sure if this is entirely TRUE, but somehow, it explains alot to me, and lalalal i dont know. but in and illustration. a little girl walking along side her father can just fall down, but when she does, her father brings her through, he plasters her cut, dries her tears and does all he can to heal her. and thats exactly how god is, its not his promise to NOT let us fall sick or go through pain and hurt, coz if it is, then he ma si dont love alot of ppl coz so many ppl get hurt,thats not the case you see, god loves EVERYONE so dearly........[go see john 3.16] but it's his promise to be with us, to guide us through, to bring us through tough times. to heal us, to plaster our wounds, to kiss the hurt goodbye, and to teach us what we need to learn. LESSONS FOR LIFE.

:)

GOD is just so........awesome, wonderful, amazing, brilliant, splendid, great..........no wait, all this words cant even describe half of what GOD is. his love is just so......................ohmygoodness.......its undescribable..................all these words, are not even enough to REALLY describe god and his lov for us

:D