As I watched my skin tear apart, slowly, it bled.

continuing the previous post. hmm. hold on, wires connecting.

connecting....25%
connecting.....50%
connecting.....73%
connecting....97.2&
connection stalled at 97.2%

ok well so as you can see. wire conenction is not complete. which means i probably start craping halfway through. anyways. yeah kinda down mood i guess? wunt say emo, later kena again, XD.

and um yes im antilove. XD. sounds so bad but seriously. i just.....*shudders. cant take it. not only when i think of liking someone or anything, i go like "tcheah right, that youwld NEVER happen. man i dowanna go through all the heartache and headace again mann.", but even when i see other couples and all, eg my sis and bf...i have the same though "it would never work out well. she's in for trouble." mummy keep saying hava a positive outlook, but mummy, im so sorry i cant. whee~ umm yeah. my life's kinda messed up lately, ok well not lately, my life's been messed up for da past 3 fucking months. and i dont know what to do with it.sigh. at first thought it was over but nope its not. second time thought gao tim d but nopes. then now? thought finish liao but..sigh x tau la. later got this problem then that problem then another thing chut su pulak. tao hin you know. damn it man. seriously. i dowanna do anything can ar? God ar...please please i know you do best at gao tim-ing ppl's life right. can help me ar? gao tim everything, let everything run like how its supposed to be, that means like how you originally planned it, boleh? t'rima kasih manyak manyak. X)

umm..swimming never go dunno 2 or 3 weeks d... cant rmb. lol. then stopping for september... after that dunno ler..wanna take inter found. exam next year. mummy say concentrate mur on dance lur...how leh?? aih...another thing wanna tao hin now. ishhk

sigh think about school ni i wanna cry d. got 48 more days of school left only!!!! TT TT TT TT
X'C X'C X'C. sigh......school damn fun. its not just school its life. and 48 days...sigh sure pass extra fast mia. then holidays d....sien nia. what to do in holidays??? nothing to do pun. sien si wa!








i miss the pass.when i was happy.when i was in a small congregation.when i was 12.running around keong hoe.when i busy manyakmanyak with church.when i x emo.when we used to tie dragonflies with strings.when i laughed all the time. when life was just pure candy.but who says life now is bad? the pass didnt have a rubiks cube.the pass didnt have the mirror rubiks.the pass didnt have smk conventgreenlane. the pass didnt have me loving ballet somuch. the pass didnt have me sopping around.the pass didnt have me lost in my life.