what if it's all too soon?
what if i should wait?
what if im not strong enough?
what if this is not right?
what if it's not God's will?
what if this the path leading to my heart being broken again and im on that very path right now?
what if i've committed myself too soon?
what if i have a change of heart?
what if im not able to live up to standards?
what if i cant do it?
what if i cant succeed?
what if im doubting myself too much?
what if it wont work out?
what if i should do something?
what if i should just give up?
what if all this is just a fantasy?
what if its all a dream?
what if i wake up too soon?
what if this is all a mistake?
what if all these if just giving me false hope?
what if i hurt anyone?
what if all this that is happening is not supposed to happen?
what if i did anything too rash?
what if i was ignorant of the truth, went against the flow and now realise its all wrong?
BUT what if its not all wrong?
what if God's saying he's testing my faith in Him.
what if God's asking me to trust in him more.
what if God's telling me that its ALRIGHT to feel this way
what if God's telling me its alright to run out of things to say.
what if God's saying that He will ALWAYS be there.
what if God's telling me to seek first His kingdom.
what if all this is right in the first place?
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
This is beautiful. Try not to cryShe jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?' The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.' Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?' The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.' Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair ?' the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.' Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep. It was around midnight when Sally awoke . Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said : 'Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You'. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad th inking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom, God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great. Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent Th e Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ? Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.
( Let's see Satan stop this one.) Take 60 seconds and repost this, within the hour, you will have caused a multitude of believers to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and feel the Holy Spirit work in your life for doing what you know God loves 'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'
( Let's see Satan stop this one.) Take 60 seconds and repost this, within the hour, you will have caused a multitude of believers to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and feel the Holy Spirit work in your life for doing what you know God loves 'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Oh no
School is just as fun as always.
and guess what people?
BALLET EXAM is in TWO MONTHS people! TWO MONTHS!
TWO MONTHS that sound really long but its not!~
thats like 15 more classes to perfect everything!
my jumps and everything! omygoodness i dont even know the heads and hands and legs for all my work.
oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no.
ok so thats the worse part of life or whatever you call it, but SO WHAT, i have GOD right??
lol
anyways, i was just wondering, do ppl sometimes feel like giving up?
its like everything's so hard, and its getting harder and harder as you go higher and higher, and sometimes you just feel like stopping all of these, but then you fret at the thought of stopping, because you LOVE it so much?
take my ballet for instance. go youtube and you can see videos of amazing ballet dancers, and for me, i want to be like that, i mean, the amount of strength, control, grace, and discipline they have is just amazing. i step into the ballet studio trying to be like that but i dont have that strength and its sometimes just so hard and i feel like giving up , but then its just so enjoyable and fun, that i cant even imagine myself without ballet. safe to say, i LOVE ballet.
and somehow i think maybe we should have that same love for God. we all know it gets so hard sometimes, but we just keep on going, some thing in us that cant even imagine stopping.
:)
and guess what people?
BALLET EXAM is in TWO MONTHS people! TWO MONTHS!
TWO MONTHS that sound really long but its not!~
thats like 15 more classes to perfect everything!
my jumps and everything! omygoodness i dont even know the heads and hands and legs for all my work.
oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no.
ok so thats the worse part of life or whatever you call it, but SO WHAT, i have GOD right??
lol
anyways, i was just wondering, do ppl sometimes feel like giving up?
its like everything's so hard, and its getting harder and harder as you go higher and higher, and sometimes you just feel like stopping all of these, but then you fret at the thought of stopping, because you LOVE it so much?
take my ballet for instance. go youtube and you can see videos of amazing ballet dancers, and for me, i want to be like that, i mean, the amount of strength, control, grace, and discipline they have is just amazing. i step into the ballet studio trying to be like that but i dont have that strength and its sometimes just so hard and i feel like giving up , but then its just so enjoyable and fun, that i cant even imagine myself without ballet. safe to say, i LOVE ballet.
and somehow i think maybe we should have that same love for God. we all know it gets so hard sometimes, but we just keep on going, some thing in us that cant even imagine stopping.
:)
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