I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
I MISS YOU
Sunday, June 29, 2008
argh!!!
i cant wait for my pointe shoes!!!!
if feels so great to wear them! but its not easy. haha
faster come la pointe shoes. i wait for you very long ady, zai bo?!
lol.
you better faster arh.. i tell you!
abo ar.......
hehe. you know liao la!
wad do ya think about this name picture? nice? haha.
hand drawn wei.
:p
have any of you ever heard a guy say " i like alotta girls to like me wan. so i wont ask any of the girls to give up their feelings for me wan"
wad the heck. thats is so crapping perasan. any guy who says that should go deflate his damn head! :/
a "dont know what to say" update
i seriously dont know what to say.
well , yeah, i actually have alotta things to say. i just dont know where and how to start. haha.
okk.. lets start from monday.
nothing happened on monday.
tuesday pun nada.
wednesday was teachers day. but im not gonna say anythinga bout it, coz you can read about it at wei lynn's blog. just go there from my link.
thursday is where things happened.
some of my clas teachers were involved in the school concert raptai so of coz tak masuk class laa. duhh.. swt"
and i was reading sink or swim. and there was this one part that was talking about the character pretending to have gotten over her ex bf, and putting on a front that shows thats she's strong and all that. bla bla bla.
and the book said "you cant make somehting go away just......by ignoring it. you may think you're being storng but you're just pushing it all down. it takes so much energy to push it all down too"
and that got me thinking about me. haha.
this past month. june. the life i've been living this past month has been a total lie for me. it was all a fake. after the bust up at the end of may. i vented my anger for 2 days and i just put on a mask.
a mask that said "im fine. there's nothing wrong. im over him. i hate him. he's a jerk. i never want to see, talk, sms him ever again. i just wanna dissappear from his life"
but beneath that mask, i've been crumbling and breaking so much. i've missed talking to him so much. DONT GET ME WRONG! i mean, sharing my problems with him was.......idk. he understood me laa. can cheer me up. and he's funny kay.
but still, i did not go sms him for the past month.
why?
well, i guess, i was afraid. i was very afraid. bthe past 2-3 months has been a bliss+hurt. it was like, he was helping me up the ladder, kept pulling me up, and when i was almost at the top, he would just shunt me off. i fall to the ground, hurt myself, and he would come and be the helping hand. and believe or not? the whole cycle keeps going on and on. and im always the one to get hurt. and because of me continuesly getting hurt, i've sorta put up walls and barriers around my heart, to protect myself from getting hurt anymore. and if he sms-es me, like he did, twice in june, i wouldnt let myself go hysterical,pretend its nothing. if he said anything hurtful, i'll just disregard it, pretend its nothing. its like i was stopping myself from feeling anything for him and the things he did. even normal daily life things like smsing ppl or stufff.
i was afraid of letting myself in too deep again. i was afraid that it would affect me too much.
i was afraid of getting hurt again.
continuing with thursday. so i suddenly got this thoughts, and another sudden thought came to me.
i suddenly thought of him saying "look, whenever you want someone to talk to, im always free".
and that put me down even more. i mean, how was i supposed to talk to him about my problems and stuff. when he IS my problems and stuff?? and my friends they're all very good friends, best friends. but we never talk about all these kinda deep deep things. we jsut have fun together. and i have no one to talk to.
not forgetting god.
so i sorta din talk at all for the whole of saturday. i just kept mulling things over in my mind. iot even put me off my food during recess which is not normal. haih. i came home, feeling so down, and i kena from my mom again, sheesh.
that sums up my week i guess.
went for dinner just now at evergreen. cousin's bday dinner.
and nothing much for now.
"you'll find someone when you're ready."
well , yeah, i actually have alotta things to say. i just dont know where and how to start. haha.
okk.. lets start from monday.
nothing happened on monday.
tuesday pun nada.
wednesday was teachers day. but im not gonna say anythinga bout it, coz you can read about it at wei lynn's blog. just go there from my link.
thursday is where things happened.
some of my clas teachers were involved in the school concert raptai so of coz tak masuk class laa. duhh.. swt"
and i was reading sink or swim. and there was this one part that was talking about the character pretending to have gotten over her ex bf, and putting on a front that shows thats she's strong and all that. bla bla bla.
and the book said "you cant make somehting go away just......by ignoring it. you may think you're being storng but you're just pushing it all down. it takes so much energy to push it all down too"
and that got me thinking about me. haha.
this past month. june. the life i've been living this past month has been a total lie for me. it was all a fake. after the bust up at the end of may. i vented my anger for 2 days and i just put on a mask.
a mask that said "im fine. there's nothing wrong. im over him. i hate him. he's a jerk. i never want to see, talk, sms him ever again. i just wanna dissappear from his life"
but beneath that mask, i've been crumbling and breaking so much. i've missed talking to him so much. DONT GET ME WRONG! i mean, sharing my problems with him was.......idk. he understood me laa. can cheer me up. and he's funny kay.
but still, i did not go sms him for the past month.
why?
well, i guess, i was afraid. i was very afraid. bthe past 2-3 months has been a bliss+hurt. it was like, he was helping me up the ladder, kept pulling me up, and when i was almost at the top, he would just shunt me off. i fall to the ground, hurt myself, and he would come and be the helping hand. and believe or not? the whole cycle keeps going on and on. and im always the one to get hurt. and because of me continuesly getting hurt, i've sorta put up walls and barriers around my heart, to protect myself from getting hurt anymore. and if he sms-es me, like he did, twice in june, i wouldnt let myself go hysterical,pretend its nothing. if he said anything hurtful, i'll just disregard it, pretend its nothing. its like i was stopping myself from feeling anything for him and the things he did. even normal daily life things like smsing ppl or stufff.
i was afraid of letting myself in too deep again. i was afraid that it would affect me too much.
i was afraid of getting hurt again.
continuing with thursday. so i suddenly got this thoughts, and another sudden thought came to me.
i suddenly thought of him saying "look, whenever you want someone to talk to, im always free".
and that put me down even more. i mean, how was i supposed to talk to him about my problems and stuff. when he IS my problems and stuff?? and my friends they're all very good friends, best friends. but we never talk about all these kinda deep deep things. we jsut have fun together. and i have no one to talk to.
not forgetting god.
so i sorta din talk at all for the whole of saturday. i just kept mulling things over in my mind. iot even put me off my food during recess which is not normal. haih. i came home, feeling so down, and i kena from my mom again, sheesh.
that sums up my week i guess.
went for dinner just now at evergreen. cousin's bday dinner.
and nothing much for now.
"you'll find someone when you're ready."
Friday, June 20, 2008
another one,.
just another short one.
ok, just a few days ago, in the beginning of the week, i had a dream.
err..its a really confusing one, and i dont really remember clearly what happened. (i mean who does remember their dreams!!)
basically, i THINK i was supposed to be commiting suicide with a grenade gas bomb. i think, which doesnt really makes sense. so the bomb is pulled, i breathe in the gas and suddenly feel faintish and my friend runs to my side and my last words were "i love........" (at this moment i actually thought of some guy's name, and then suddenly i thought of GOD, all the htings he has done for me and how he died for me) and i ended up saying "............GOD"
after a few minutes maybe hours, i woke up. yea, in the dream not real life. so i did not die. then there were ppl around talking and i was like thinking why the gas bomb was not effective. then things started to happen, those i cant remember.thats when i started crying. ooh and i remember saying " why arent i dying? its supposed to work". and my friend says" sshhh.. dont cry. you're supposed to be enjoying it (dying)". and i was crying. then ppl continue talking and i just remember myself continuing crying and crying in the dream and after a while someone said something, and i said "i have god".
and the i woke up (yea, in real life) and i was CRYING! yea. it was like 7 something in the morning. and then these words just came to me.
"when you feel like there's nothing else in this world for you, always remember "i have god"
when everything is going wrong, remember that he is always there for you"
and i was crying softly...and then i went back to sleep.
so...yeah..that sums it up. haha.
i was just wondering was that me or was that god.?
ok, so there's this friend of mine who said she watched cartoons to see how THEY solve their problems in daily life. that struck me as incredibly funny.
recently, i have been head over heels for this one guy, and he sorta became my WORLS, my EVERYTHING.
then that one full week of rebels for christ practices, made me realise that that guy isnt my everything. GOD is.
ok, so it kinda changed me. i turned my perspective around and realised that i have been abandoning god this past 6 months. yea, i go to church and all that, but my world was built around that guy. which isnt right. so i just asked god to take the wheel from my hands. let him handle all these things coz i noe god ahs my life planned out for me, and i need not worry about being a bacholerette in future.
anyways, then this dream came along and it struck me even harder that god really has been there for me all along, whenver i felt like no one lse was, i just did not trust god to answer me, not enough for me to turn to him for help.
whoever's thats reading this,
when you feel like there's nothing on this world for you, always remember "i have GOD".when everything is going wrong always remember that he will always be there for you, waiting for you to turn to him. just call out to him and he'll see you through all your problems. talk to god. seek him and you'll realise that he IS the EVERYTHING ppl keep talking about. things can satisfy us, but they cant COMPLETE us. GOD can.
:)
lights out
ok, just a few days ago, in the beginning of the week, i had a dream.
err..its a really confusing one, and i dont really remember clearly what happened. (i mean who does remember their dreams!!)
basically, i THINK i was supposed to be commiting suicide with a grenade gas bomb. i think, which doesnt really makes sense. so the bomb is pulled, i breathe in the gas and suddenly feel faintish and my friend runs to my side and my last words were "i love........" (at this moment i actually thought of some guy's name, and then suddenly i thought of GOD, all the htings he has done for me and how he died for me) and i ended up saying "............GOD"
after a few minutes maybe hours, i woke up. yea, in the dream not real life. so i did not die. then there were ppl around talking and i was like thinking why the gas bomb was not effective. then things started to happen, those i cant remember.thats when i started crying. ooh and i remember saying " why arent i dying? its supposed to work". and my friend says" sshhh.. dont cry. you're supposed to be enjoying it (dying)". and i was crying. then ppl continue talking and i just remember myself continuing crying and crying in the dream and after a while someone said something, and i said "i have god".
and the i woke up (yea, in real life) and i was CRYING! yea. it was like 7 something in the morning. and then these words just came to me.
"when you feel like there's nothing else in this world for you, always remember "i have god"
when everything is going wrong, remember that he is always there for you"
and i was crying softly...and then i went back to sleep.
so...yeah..that sums it up. haha.
i was just wondering was that me or was that god.?
ok, so there's this friend of mine who said she watched cartoons to see how THEY solve their problems in daily life. that struck me as incredibly funny.
recently, i have been head over heels for this one guy, and he sorta became my WORLS, my EVERYTHING.
then that one full week of rebels for christ practices, made me realise that that guy isnt my everything. GOD is.
ok, so it kinda changed me. i turned my perspective around and realised that i have been abandoning god this past 6 months. yea, i go to church and all that, but my world was built around that guy. which isnt right. so i just asked god to take the wheel from my hands. let him handle all these things coz i noe god ahs my life planned out for me, and i need not worry about being a bacholerette in future.
anyways, then this dream came along and it struck me even harder that god really has been there for me all along, whenver i felt like no one lse was, i just did not trust god to answer me, not enough for me to turn to him for help.
whoever's thats reading this,
when you feel like there's nothing on this world for you, always remember "i have GOD".when everything is going wrong always remember that he will always be there for you, waiting for you to turn to him. just call out to him and he'll see you through all your problems. talk to god. seek him and you'll realise that he IS the EVERYTHING ppl keep talking about. things can satisfy us, but they cant COMPLETE us. GOD can.
:)
lights out
peace.
ooh.. i havent updated for 5 days. sorry ppl (who pays me visits)!!
okay. so..internet has really been lagging these past few days.
and it took me like 45 minutes...oh nvm.
anyways, schools not so much of a bliss. but friends are wonderful, recently we've been talking alot about *coughs*ahem ahem *coughs*.ahh.. right,
moving on.
school had a science fair that day. some of the booths were really interesting, like hot to make your own detergent (that smelled like red wine), how to make your own fruit mask, organic drink, herbal batteries, bla bla bla. saw wei lynn ther. in her art club shirt. i din noe she was in art club. sheesh.
anyways there was this booth on ising optical illusions to improve our eyesight so im currently into optical illusions. lol. hey! they're fun!
ok, so english literature in school in the topic "the lake isle of innisfree" was what that really probed me to post.
PEACE
the quality of peace is hard to find. our mind is always thinking, our hearts are always feeling. different ppl find peace in different conditions, different times, different places.
in our lifes nowadays, peace is hard to find, with school work, rows with parents, misunderstandings with friends, and for some of us, maybe problems with boyfrined/girlfriend. all of these penetrating out heart and soul and mind, sometimes bring us problems and confusion, tears and pain, making hard for us to find OUR blissful peace within ourselves.
we wouldnt be able to "escape" to "innisfree" like william butler yeats did right, what with the noise level of classmates, teachers, parents, television, traffic and our blasting music.
i wonder how life would be without all these problems. what would life be if we humans didnt have to THINK so much. how would our lifes be if we could find peace whenever we want.
well, i guess i'll never find out, cause life keeps going on and on, never stopping, ups and downs comes and goes. tears and laughter each passing in its pace, taking life in in its stride. life will not stop until the day we shut our eyelids forever.
and with our ever-moving-life. problems arise, heartbreak, tears, pain and hurt. its unavoidable. so dont keep on focusing on the things ppl do or do not do that hurt you cause life's too short..if you feel like you need to talk to someone, then do so, maybe then you'll find our PEACE there.
okay. so..internet has really been lagging these past few days.
and it took me like 45 minutes...oh nvm.
anyways, schools not so much of a bliss. but friends are wonderful, recently we've been talking alot about *coughs*ahem ahem *coughs*.ahh.. right,
moving on.
school had a science fair that day. some of the booths were really interesting, like hot to make your own detergent (that smelled like red wine), how to make your own fruit mask, organic drink, herbal batteries, bla bla bla. saw wei lynn ther. in her art club shirt. i din noe she was in art club. sheesh.
anyways there was this booth on ising optical illusions to improve our eyesight so im currently into optical illusions. lol. hey! they're fun!
ok, so english literature in school in the topic "the lake isle of innisfree" was what that really probed me to post.
PEACE
the quality of peace is hard to find. our mind is always thinking, our hearts are always feeling. different ppl find peace in different conditions, different times, different places.
in our lifes nowadays, peace is hard to find, with school work, rows with parents, misunderstandings with friends, and for some of us, maybe problems with boyfrined/girlfriend. all of these penetrating out heart and soul and mind, sometimes bring us problems and confusion, tears and pain, making hard for us to find OUR blissful peace within ourselves.
we wouldnt be able to "escape" to "innisfree" like william butler yeats did right, what with the noise level of classmates, teachers, parents, television, traffic and our blasting music.
i wonder how life would be without all these problems. what would life be if we humans didnt have to THINK so much. how would our lifes be if we could find peace whenever we want.
well, i guess i'll never find out, cause life keeps going on and on, never stopping, ups and downs comes and goes. tears and laughter each passing in its pace, taking life in in its stride. life will not stop until the day we shut our eyelids forever.
and with our ever-moving-life. problems arise, heartbreak, tears, pain and hurt. its unavoidable. so dont keep on focusing on the things ppl do or do not do that hurt you cause life's too short..if you feel like you need to talk to someone, then do so, maybe then you'll find our PEACE there.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
update. again??
i have nothing to do now.
so im just gonna update and type down anything that goes through my moment,aight?
update on the past 3 weeks (yes, including this week)
2 weeks ago
26th may : badminton; church
supposed to go queens after badminton but ended up not going because someone couldnt go. sheesh. so just went home, sleep, wake up and went to church. sorry girls! for being abit fierce that night. wasnt really having a good day :)
27th may: church
28th may: church
29th may: church
gave my contemp class a miss. lol.
30th may: REBELS FOR CHRIST concert! whoo-hoo!
31st may: home; gurney; church
1st june: church; lunch; hairdresser
2nd june: home
3rd june: queens
4th june: gurney
5th june: home; contemp
6th june: badminton; home
missed my contemp replacement class . was too tired after badminton. lol
7th june: *forgotten*
8th june: gymrama; bai se
9th june: school; HOUSE
10th june: school; CSI:NY
11th june: school; CSI: csi; CSI:Miami
12th june: school; contemp
13th june: school; contemp replacement class
so....yea.thats my past 3 weeks.
actually, lots of things happened la. i got really angry at my friend, less than a day later, was not angry anymore. then went crazy over something, then was normal again, then got really agry at that friend again. so my what i felt towards that friend is
angry-normal-very high-normal-abit lower than normal-very angry;feel betrayted
just over a span of 2 weeks.
err. i took another bus home today, the one with wan wen
and oh my goodness! i felt like i havent talked or seen wan wen for so long!!
so we started chatting in the bus. then i started venting out my anger.lol.
yea, and eunice was there too. so the 3 of us were happily critisizing that friend of mine.
and when i say critisize, it means
"he's damn stupid"
"aiya! he really stupid wan la!"
"how can he do this to me wan?! stupid wan lehh!"
"he very...*urgh!*...one word: stupid!"
"he really is stupid wan. bo akai wan!"
"you say? wad he did stupid anot?"
"he's worth being angry at wan la!"
"you should have been angry since the beginning coz he's stupid wan kay?"
"how can he do this to you wan? i feel like punching him! slap oso cannot. must punch!"
yea. so we were happily doing that when the bus just HAD to arrive at my stop.
got off the bus, ate dinner, and the mee goreng was so SPICY! sheesh! i dont think the guy understand what's "tak may cabai; tak mau cili".
went for contemp replacement class. my sis told me that there were ABC fries on the table.
went to the fridge, got out the ketchup bottle, and i just stood there shaking the ketchup bottle for what seemed like ages, then only i realised that it was empty. ishk.
thats it for now. cant think of anything at the moment.
so im just gonna update and type down anything that goes through my moment,aight?
update on the past 3 weeks (yes, including this week)
2 weeks ago
26th may : badminton; church
supposed to go queens after badminton but ended up not going because someone couldnt go. sheesh. so just went home, sleep, wake up and went to church. sorry girls! for being abit fierce that night. wasnt really having a good day :)
27th may: church
28th may: church
29th may: church
gave my contemp class a miss. lol.
30th may: REBELS FOR CHRIST concert! whoo-hoo!
31st may: home; gurney; church
1st june: church; lunch; hairdresser
2nd june: home
3rd june: queens
4th june: gurney
5th june: home; contemp
6th june: badminton; home
missed my contemp replacement class . was too tired after badminton. lol
7th june: *forgotten*
8th june: gymrama; bai se
9th june: school; HOUSE
10th june: school; CSI:NY
11th june: school; CSI: csi; CSI:Miami
12th june: school; contemp
13th june: school; contemp replacement class
so....yea.thats my past 3 weeks.
actually, lots of things happened la. i got really angry at my friend, less than a day later, was not angry anymore. then went crazy over something, then was normal again, then got really agry at that friend again. so my what i felt towards that friend is
angry-normal-very high-normal-abit lower than normal-very angry;feel betrayted
just over a span of 2 weeks.
err. i took another bus home today, the one with wan wen
and oh my goodness! i felt like i havent talked or seen wan wen for so long!!
so we started chatting in the bus. then i started venting out my anger.lol.
yea, and eunice was there too. so the 3 of us were happily critisizing that friend of mine.
and when i say critisize, it means
"he's damn stupid"
"aiya! he really stupid wan la!"
"how can he do this to me wan?! stupid wan lehh!"
"he very...*urgh!*...one word: stupid!"
"he really is stupid wan. bo akai wan!"
"you say? wad he did stupid anot?"
"he's worth being angry at wan la!"
"you should have been angry since the beginning coz he's stupid wan kay?"
"how can he do this to you wan? i feel like punching him! slap oso cannot. must punch!"
yea. so we were happily doing that when the bus just HAD to arrive at my stop.
got off the bus, ate dinner, and the mee goreng was so SPICY! sheesh! i dont think the guy understand what's "tak may cabai; tak mau cili".
went for contemp replacement class. my sis told me that there were ABC fries on the table.
went to the fridge, got out the ketchup bottle, and i just stood there shaking the ketchup bottle for what seemed like ages, then only i realised that it was empty. ishk.
thats it for now. cant think of anything at the moment.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
update. (but a very short one)
coz the teacher's walking around so i have to be more alert.
lol.
haha. ppl in my tagboard said that my posts are honest.
yay!haha. thanku thanku.
lol
ok,update update.
i managed to get emanuelle to book her apartment courts for us.
haha. yay~!
oh and im very hungry right now. cant wait top eat my fried eggs after this class. i ownself cook wan kayy!! with butter. smells sooo nice.
haha.next time cook for whoever wants.lol. but remember to bring your own egg! lol. my house outta eggs.
but anyone can cook eggs right?
lol.
i really dont know what to say right now. cant think of a thing. lol.
oh, and the temperament test. im actually a SANGUINE MELANCHOLY.
i took the test again coz turns out i din understand half of the words in the test.
so my mom lend me a book she bought some time ago, which is about all these temperaments, their charecteristics, hot to improve the weaknesses, how to deal with this kinda ppl and all those stuff. and of coz the definitions of all those words.
haha.and i read the book. it really is a very good book. ya'll should read it. its called "personality plus" by florence -something-.and all those things the author-ess worte are so true.
lol. can be related to real life and i just experienced it yesterday.
im a sanguine, sis most probably one too, but my mom is a major melancholy.orderly and organised. and yesterday night she asked my sis o hang the clothes and i wash the dishes before watching CSI!! (whoo-hoo!! i love csi!) ok, so i did that, and my sis didnt....long story.
bottom line is my mom said "i dont understand why both of you ar...cannot be like me!!! hardworking!!" (angrily) lol. and thats what personality plus talks about exactly!!
saying that everyone is born unique, and different. god gave us all different temperaments and we have to make the best of it . we cant expect everyone else to have the same temperaments as us, if so, the world would explode if it was full of sanguines! haha.
random random.
my friends are currently sitting beside me talking about what scipt to use for school drama competiton, but somehow they ended up talking about movies instead, sheesh. so sanguinic.
recently, i like watching all those gruesome thriller movies like those with blodd splattering and ppl dying. haha. nicee. one good example is final destination 3. very very nice movie. and lots more others like, identity, psycho 3, stay alive and all that sorts of movies. ooh and i also LOVE romantic comedies. but i hate it when the main actor and actress dont end up together in the end.
OK! im done and my class is ending now anyway. "thank you teacher!"
and remind me to post about why chinese school girls have to have short hair and the effects of it on our studies, which are NONE!
bye!
lol.
haha. ppl in my tagboard said that my posts are honest.
yay!haha. thanku thanku.
lol
ok,update update.
i managed to get emanuelle to book her apartment courts for us.
haha. yay~!
oh and im very hungry right now. cant wait top eat my fried eggs after this class. i ownself cook wan kayy!! with butter. smells sooo nice.
haha.next time cook for whoever wants.lol. but remember to bring your own egg! lol. my house outta eggs.
but anyone can cook eggs right?
lol.
i really dont know what to say right now. cant think of a thing. lol.
oh, and the temperament test. im actually a SANGUINE MELANCHOLY.
i took the test again coz turns out i din understand half of the words in the test.
so my mom lend me a book she bought some time ago, which is about all these temperaments, their charecteristics, hot to improve the weaknesses, how to deal with this kinda ppl and all those stuff. and of coz the definitions of all those words.
haha.and i read the book. it really is a very good book. ya'll should read it. its called "personality plus" by florence -something-.and all those things the author-ess worte are so true.
lol. can be related to real life and i just experienced it yesterday.
im a sanguine, sis most probably one too, but my mom is a major melancholy.orderly and organised. and yesterday night she asked my sis o hang the clothes and i wash the dishes before watching CSI!! (whoo-hoo!! i love csi!) ok, so i did that, and my sis didnt....long story.
bottom line is my mom said "i dont understand why both of you ar...cannot be like me!!! hardworking!!" (angrily) lol. and thats what personality plus talks about exactly!!
saying that everyone is born unique, and different. god gave us all different temperaments and we have to make the best of it . we cant expect everyone else to have the same temperaments as us, if so, the world would explode if it was full of sanguines! haha.
random random.
my friends are currently sitting beside me talking about what scipt to use for school drama competiton, but somehow they ended up talking about movies instead, sheesh. so sanguinic.
recently, i like watching all those gruesome thriller movies like those with blodd splattering and ppl dying. haha. nicee. one good example is final destination 3. very very nice movie. and lots more others like, identity, psycho 3, stay alive and all that sorts of movies. ooh and i also LOVE romantic comedies. but i hate it when the main actor and actress dont end up together in the end.
OK! im done and my class is ending now anyway. "thank you teacher!"
and remind me to post about why chinese school girls have to have short hair and the effects of it on our studies, which are NONE!
bye!
Sunday, June 8, 2008
are they true?
i just finished watching a cinderella story AGAIN.
haha.
the whole i was watching the movie,
i just kept wondering, are happy endings for real?
or are they just for hollywood?
do happy endings really happen in real life? maybe the ppl around me?
i mean, all these "and they lived happily ever after" things seem abit ironic, doesnt it?
watch all these movies, and its guy meets girl, they fall in love, get married and its
that cliched phrase - and they lived happily after again.
nothing goes wrong in those relationships.
if there's a row then its all im sorry, pls forgive me, huggy huggy make up and thats it.
are all these true? has anyone ever gone true it before?
hah. of course, just look around us and see all those happy married couples.
yes those were the days when cheating was a 8-letter-word, and everyone was loyal to everyone.
times has change, trend has change, ppl have changed, everything has changed.
do happy endings still exist in now, in our teenage lifes.
everyday, its busy busy, tuition, study, and the usual business.
no time for courtship anymore is there?
alot of adults (the older generation) would say that high school age is not a apropriate time for courtship, but maybe they have forgotten their own youth? alot of adults want their children to at least graduate from college before even having feelings for anyone, all they keep saying is that it'll affect our studies and social life.
studies.
is that what they all care about these days? A's?
no, thats not everything.
sometimes when a teenager starts a relationship with someone at a younger age maybe 14,15. they really need their parents support, they cant go through it all alone, they need advice and coaching. i mean, thats what parents are for right? to support their children? but instead they end up giving their children an earful.
its natural for a child who has reach puberty to develop greater interest in the opposite sex, we study it in science for goodness sake! and the media for the past YEARS has been broadcasting all these kinds of boyfriend girlfriend movies, tv series, and all that stuff with nice, and they lived happily ever after stuff. even cinderella and all those fairytales have these falling in love stuff. and young kids watched cinderella you know!
so you cant really blame teenagers for wanting to have a boyfriend. cant blame them for wanting to find a pre-happy ending? maybe not a happy ending but happiness and relaxation at least. even though relationship does come with pain. thats why parents need to be there for their courting teenagers, be their shoulder for them to cry on when they need it!
after a lond day at school and tuition classes and all those crap, teenagers will tend to turn to friends for some chat to just release some stress. and sometimes those (or THAT) friend will turn out to be someone of the opposite sex, done worry! it doesnt matter. its all natural and what it should be.
ever wondered why most teens dont turn to their parents when their stressed or tensed? well its because parents tend to nag. i know alotta parents will say they dont, but its in their nature, so its nothing wrong! :p
a healthy young relationship, like maybe during high school age, will not do any harm to a teenager. in fact it'll help that teenager grow as a teenager, make him/her prepared for what they must face in future relationships. it'll teach them what they need to know, but its experience is only less than half of it, god and parents' support make up the remaining.
so all i wanna say is, parents, if you find out that your high school teenager is having a relationship, DONT murder them and throw their body into a 9x6 cell, support them, give them advice, constantly ask them hows things going as a mean of support.
and teenagers (everyone like me!) dont let one person affect your whole lifestyle, dont let one relationship that did not go so well, make you give up on all these things. coz love is healthy, love is good. you NEED it! i understand if you're the type that prefers to concentrate on your life other than your love life first, then its ok, but if you realise that you're slowly starting to like someone, which means you start thinking of that someone more oftenly and stuff like that, then dont run away from those feelings, let it develop! its healthy, and it makes you grow :) though i understand that some ppl would rather ignore those feelings and let friendships continue being friendships.
everyone in this world is different. we all have different ways of doing things, different ways of facing and solving problems, someof us run, some of us face it.
well, running away from a broken heart or a badly hurt heart doesnt make it any better, it wont solve problems. running away could mean that you avoid thinking of that problem, you try sleeping and reading and watching tv alot to keep your mind away from the problem, but thats not it.
instead, go to someone, someone you can trust, talk it out. share your heart with someone, it WILL make you feel better. and as they always say, two heads are better than one, so whatever your problem may be, you might even be able to find a solution to it TOGETHER with your friend.
i know more than half of my post is irrelevant to the topic i started out with which was HAPPY ENDINGS. but i just htought of all these things to say. so i did. RANDOM, get it?
lol.
anyways, a healthy lifestyle is part of what HAPPY ENDINGS are ! :)
lights out,
miss random
(ps. this is my 100th post) haha and its 5:16 am.
lol
haha.
the whole i was watching the movie,
i just kept wondering, are happy endings for real?
or are they just for hollywood?
do happy endings really happen in real life? maybe the ppl around me?
i mean, all these "and they lived happily ever after" things seem abit ironic, doesnt it?
watch all these movies, and its guy meets girl, they fall in love, get married and its
that cliched phrase - and they lived happily after again.
nothing goes wrong in those relationships.
if there's a row then its all im sorry, pls forgive me, huggy huggy make up and thats it.
are all these true? has anyone ever gone true it before?
hah. of course, just look around us and see all those happy married couples.
yes those were the days when cheating was a 8-letter-word, and everyone was loyal to everyone.
times has change, trend has change, ppl have changed, everything has changed.
do happy endings still exist in now, in our teenage lifes.
everyday, its busy busy, tuition, study, and the usual business.
no time for courtship anymore is there?
alot of adults (the older generation) would say that high school age is not a apropriate time for courtship, but maybe they have forgotten their own youth? alot of adults want their children to at least graduate from college before even having feelings for anyone, all they keep saying is that it'll affect our studies and social life.
studies.
is that what they all care about these days? A's?
no, thats not everything.
sometimes when a teenager starts a relationship with someone at a younger age maybe 14,15. they really need their parents support, they cant go through it all alone, they need advice and coaching. i mean, thats what parents are for right? to support their children? but instead they end up giving their children an earful.
its natural for a child who has reach puberty to develop greater interest in the opposite sex, we study it in science for goodness sake! and the media for the past YEARS has been broadcasting all these kinds of boyfriend girlfriend movies, tv series, and all that stuff with nice, and they lived happily ever after stuff. even cinderella and all those fairytales have these falling in love stuff. and young kids watched cinderella you know!
so you cant really blame teenagers for wanting to have a boyfriend. cant blame them for wanting to find a pre-happy ending? maybe not a happy ending but happiness and relaxation at least. even though relationship does come with pain. thats why parents need to be there for their courting teenagers, be their shoulder for them to cry on when they need it!
after a lond day at school and tuition classes and all those crap, teenagers will tend to turn to friends for some chat to just release some stress. and sometimes those (or THAT) friend will turn out to be someone of the opposite sex, done worry! it doesnt matter. its all natural and what it should be.
ever wondered why most teens dont turn to their parents when their stressed or tensed? well its because parents tend to nag. i know alotta parents will say they dont, but its in their nature, so its nothing wrong! :p
a healthy young relationship, like maybe during high school age, will not do any harm to a teenager. in fact it'll help that teenager grow as a teenager, make him/her prepared for what they must face in future relationships. it'll teach them what they need to know, but its experience is only less than half of it, god and parents' support make up the remaining.
so all i wanna say is, parents, if you find out that your high school teenager is having a relationship, DONT murder them and throw their body into a 9x6 cell, support them, give them advice, constantly ask them hows things going as a mean of support.
and teenagers (everyone like me!) dont let one person affect your whole lifestyle, dont let one relationship that did not go so well, make you give up on all these things. coz love is healthy, love is good. you NEED it! i understand if you're the type that prefers to concentrate on your life other than your love life first, then its ok, but if you realise that you're slowly starting to like someone, which means you start thinking of that someone more oftenly and stuff like that, then dont run away from those feelings, let it develop! its healthy, and it makes you grow :) though i understand that some ppl would rather ignore those feelings and let friendships continue being friendships.
everyone in this world is different. we all have different ways of doing things, different ways of facing and solving problems, someof us run, some of us face it.
well, running away from a broken heart or a badly hurt heart doesnt make it any better, it wont solve problems. running away could mean that you avoid thinking of that problem, you try sleeping and reading and watching tv alot to keep your mind away from the problem, but thats not it.
instead, go to someone, someone you can trust, talk it out. share your heart with someone, it WILL make you feel better. and as they always say, two heads are better than one, so whatever your problem may be, you might even be able to find a solution to it TOGETHER with your friend.
i know more than half of my post is irrelevant to the topic i started out with which was HAPPY ENDINGS. but i just htought of all these things to say. so i did. RANDOM, get it?
lol.
anyways, a healthy lifestyle is part of what HAPPY ENDINGS are ! :)
lights out,
miss random
(ps. this is my 100th post) haha and its 5:16 am.
lol
update again?
lol, yes. update AGAIN.
ok, went for youth, and today was about the sanguine, choleric, melancholy and phlegmatic thingy.
the temperament stuff.. had alot of laughs.
i got home did the test, and guess wad?? im a sanguine choleric!!
whoo hoo!!! and i thought i was a melancholous (did i spell that right?) person
coz i get depressed all the time. haha.
anyways, yay for me!
ok, err..oh yea!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to wei lynn! have fun!
emm...random random..
im gonna start taking bm tuition, bt sadly not with mich and all them gals.
bt at another place, apparently my mom said it would be better than the one mich is taking coz this one has a chinese teacher so it would be easier to ask questions and the tch can explain in chinese too.. haha.
so im freaking out, coz im afraid, go there alone, dont even know where to go, where to sit, who to talk to (hey!i need to talk aight?), and you know the usual tuition stuff la, i'll be like blur blur and gong gong, making a fool of myself. sheesh. wish me luck! and god be with me! :)
my mom and sis is watching the break up now. lol and didnt want to join them coz its a depressing show. well not really, but i dont like show's where the 2 ppl dont end up together in the end. i LOVE happy endings! cant convict me for that! ha!
and i just took a cup of cold peach tea, so you can be expecting me not to sleep till dawn tonight.
haha. and if i end up sms-ing any of you at 3 am 4 am-ish AGAIN, dont blame me yea, i got nothing to do wadd!! haha
hold on till i think of some thing else to update yea?
muaks
oh and i LOVE badminton! lol. i know i know i said this before in my previous post.
haha. my havd muscles are hurting abit (just abit!) but not my legs like it did the previous 2 times. lol. i have a theory about that (this is so on the spur of the moment, brace yourself). okok, i;ve been badminton-ing 3 times. first 2 times was with matt around and ended up with my legs and hands and arse hurting like nobody's business. lol 3rd time which was yesterday was without matt around, and nothing happened!! haha. ok, this so dont make sense, but i like the sound of it. haha.
ok, went for youth, and today was about the sanguine, choleric, melancholy and phlegmatic thingy.
the temperament stuff.. had alot of laughs.
i got home did the test, and guess wad?? im a sanguine choleric!!
whoo hoo!!! and i thought i was a melancholous (did i spell that right?) person
coz i get depressed all the time. haha.
anyways, yay for me!
ok, err..oh yea!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to wei lynn! have fun!
emm...random random..
im gonna start taking bm tuition, bt sadly not with mich and all them gals.
bt at another place, apparently my mom said it would be better than the one mich is taking coz this one has a chinese teacher so it would be easier to ask questions and the tch can explain in chinese too.. haha.
so im freaking out, coz im afraid, go there alone, dont even know where to go, where to sit, who to talk to (hey!i need to talk aight?), and you know the usual tuition stuff la, i'll be like blur blur and gong gong, making a fool of myself. sheesh. wish me luck! and god be with me! :)
my mom and sis is watching the break up now. lol and didnt want to join them coz its a depressing show. well not really, but i dont like show's where the 2 ppl dont end up together in the end. i LOVE happy endings! cant convict me for that! ha!
and i just took a cup of cold peach tea, so you can be expecting me not to sleep till dawn tonight.
haha. and if i end up sms-ing any of you at 3 am 4 am-ish AGAIN, dont blame me yea, i got nothing to do wadd!! haha
hold on till i think of some thing else to update yea?
muaks
oh and i LOVE badminton! lol. i know i know i said this before in my previous post.
haha. my havd muscles are hurting abit (just abit!) but not my legs like it did the previous 2 times. lol. i have a theory about that (this is so on the spur of the moment, brace yourself). okok, i;ve been badminton-ing 3 times. first 2 times was with matt around and ended up with my legs and hands and arse hurting like nobody's business. lol 3rd time which was yesterday was without matt around, and nothing happened!! haha. ok, this so dont make sense, but i like the sound of it. haha.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
yay!
haha. thank god!!
i finally got to play o2ps and not only identity part 3.
lol..ok, so gonna update again.
excuse me for the random-ness yea?
ok, i went for badminton yesterday morning with michelle, denise, lyn and michelle's bro and cousin, danny and gary. (oh wait, did i already say this?? haha. )
wow! it was SO nice playing with them, much better than playing with matthew anyway (no offence, matt!) but seriously, danny makes a better teach-er. lol. he could be my coach. (jokin jokin) lol.
i wanns play badminton more often!!! pls god! let it be possible!
anyways, i was dog tired yesterday after badminton (yes , thx to danny for training me :)
michelle's mom fetch me to their house for mich to shower, then went over to mich grandma's hse for lunch, and mich's mom dropped me at my house with mich! haha.
we just sat in my room, on my bed and talk talk talk talk the whole afternoon. haha. fun,.
i was so tired that i did not go for my contemp replacement class in the night (sorry, lao shi!)
hmm...what else??
err, i would be taking bm tuition with mich and the rest of them in july, i think.
and would be stopping hip hop temporarily.. ishkk.
currently : praying hard for a transfer to CGL. second choice MGS, next year. plsplspls
i'll update again when i think of anything. gotta go jamm. haha
LOVE o2jam.
:p
i finally got to play o2ps and not only identity part 3.
lol..ok, so gonna update again.
excuse me for the random-ness yea?
ok, i went for badminton yesterday morning with michelle, denise, lyn and michelle's bro and cousin, danny and gary. (oh wait, did i already say this?? haha. )
wow! it was SO nice playing with them, much better than playing with matthew anyway (no offence, matt!) but seriously, danny makes a better teach-er. lol. he could be my coach. (jokin jokin) lol.
i wanns play badminton more often!!! pls god! let it be possible!
anyways, i was dog tired yesterday after badminton (yes , thx to danny for training me :)
michelle's mom fetch me to their house for mich to shower, then went over to mich grandma's hse for lunch, and mich's mom dropped me at my house with mich! haha.
we just sat in my room, on my bed and talk talk talk talk the whole afternoon. haha. fun,.
i was so tired that i did not go for my contemp replacement class in the night (sorry, lao shi!)
hmm...what else??
err, i would be taking bm tuition with mich and the rest of them in july, i think.
and would be stopping hip hop temporarily.. ishkk.
currently : praying hard for a transfer to CGL. second choice MGS, next year. plsplspls
i'll update again when i think of anything. gotta go jamm. haha
LOVE o2jam.
:p
Friday, June 6, 2008
sorry!
its late and there ARE alot of typo errors in my posts,
and im lazy to edit them, they're not really major typos.
so dont worry you can still read them.
:)
oh my goodness! identity part 2 is playing on my WMP.
noisy noisy,
hope it doesnt wake anyone up!
ok, i REALLY gotta go now.
ciao
and im lazy to edit them, they're not really major typos.
so dont worry you can still read them.
:)
oh my goodness! identity part 2 is playing on my WMP.
noisy noisy,
hope it doesnt wake anyone up!
ok, i REALLY gotta go now.
ciao
one word: guess what?? oh of course!! RANDOM!
ok, random random.
im not asleep yet eventhough its 3.33 am. lol.
oohh..reminds me that CSI : NY is starting nxt week, the ad with everything thats 3.
lol
seems abit freaky to me.
lol.
okok. rihanna looks so....... tomboy-ish in her take a bow video. its not just the hair cut, its also the way she stood and her actions during singing...
gives me the creeps. i get that enough in school and now hollywood's going that way too??
brrr....
simple plan's latest single your love is a lie.
ok, lead singer has a new hairstyle that has EMO written all over it!! (not literally, if you know what i mean)
he look better when he had lesser and shorter hair on his head.
lol. no actually it cant be lesser, i mean even though his hair is LONGER that doesnt mean that more pores grew on his head when his hair is long right?? do you get me? lol
've been listening to 4 songs over and over and over and over again these few days.
lol. i wonder why. well they ARE nice. :p
apologize ; ever ever after ; when you look me in the eyes ; ting mama de hua
last but not least, check out my tagboard!! the smilies are so cool
!! lol. so adorable. oh and OVER HER DEAD BODY is a nice movie. eva longoria parker.
pretty lass.
lol. thas a compliment. and there's nothing wrong with a girl complimenting another girl, its normal. haha. i assure you. im not lesbian.
well, im going for badminton tomorrow morning with michelle, denise, lyn, kah poh, michelle's bro and cousin, danny and gary. lol. and lyn gonna come to my house first before we go. and guess what time she;s coming over..
8:30!!!!!!!!!! ishk. have to wake up extra early to open the door for her. and we;re only going to the courts at 10.! haha. talk about being on time?
so i gotta go to bed now, wish me sweet dreams! oh wait!
by the time anyone reads this, tonight will have been over, coz i everyone would be asleep by now. right? so i guess i'd have wish my self. haha. ok then, sweet dreams to myself and good night!
oh wait, actually it hsould be good MORNING since its 3.44 am. lol.
hey i took 10 minutes to type this post.
amazing speed?? nahh..dun think so. i jus know i crapped alot and all of it is.......
RANDOM!!!! :p
lights out,
miss random.
im not asleep yet eventhough its 3.33 am. lol.
oohh..reminds me that CSI : NY is starting nxt week, the ad with everything thats 3.
lol
seems abit freaky to me.
lol.
okok. rihanna looks so....... tomboy-ish in her take a bow video. its not just the hair cut, its also the way she stood and her actions during singing...
gives me the creeps. i get that enough in school and now hollywood's going that way too??
brrr....
simple plan's latest single your love is a lie.
ok, lead singer has a new hairstyle that has EMO written all over it!! (not literally, if you know what i mean)
he look better when he had lesser and shorter hair on his head.
lol. no actually it cant be lesser, i mean even though his hair is LONGER that doesnt mean that more pores grew on his head when his hair is long right?? do you get me? lol
've been listening to 4 songs over and over and over and over again these few days.
lol. i wonder why. well they ARE nice. :p
apologize ; ever ever after ; when you look me in the eyes ; ting mama de hua
last but not least, check out my tagboard!! the smilies are so cool
!! lol. so adorable. oh and OVER HER DEAD BODY is a nice movie. eva longoria parker.
pretty lass.
lol. thas a compliment. and there's nothing wrong with a girl complimenting another girl, its normal. haha. i assure you. im not lesbian.
well, im going for badminton tomorrow morning with michelle, denise, lyn, kah poh, michelle's bro and cousin, danny and gary. lol. and lyn gonna come to my house first before we go. and guess what time she;s coming over..
8:30!!!!!!!!!! ishk. have to wake up extra early to open the door for her. and we;re only going to the courts at 10.! haha. talk about being on time?
so i gotta go to bed now, wish me sweet dreams! oh wait!
by the time anyone reads this, tonight will have been over, coz i everyone would be asleep by now. right? so i guess i'd have wish my self. haha. ok then, sweet dreams to myself and good night!
oh wait, actually it hsould be good MORNING since its 3.44 am. lol.
hey i took 10 minutes to type this post.
amazing speed?? nahh..dun think so. i jus know i crapped alot and all of it is.......
RANDOM!!!! :p
lights out,
miss random.
wonder if any of you has received this email
hmm....... weirdly, i do actually go read all those forwarded emails and all those crap
there's this one i was just wondering if any of you has received it too?
here's a copy.
So it was their 7th month anniversary and the girl calls her boyfriend:
-Girl:I love you.
-Boy:Yeah I know everyone does!
-Girl:Really?
- Boy:Yeah...everyone of my friends that are girls tell me that everyday.
- Girl:Oh...but am I only your friend?
- Boy:No...you're my girlfriend...why?
- Girl:So when I say I love you I really do mean it.
- Boy:Yeah I know you do mean it...its just that you dont need to tell me that you love me anymore cuz I know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday.
- Girl:..........
- Boy:So wanna go somewhere tonight for our 7th month anniversary?
- Girl:Yeah...where?
- Boy:I dont know...maybe movie then dinner?
-Girl:Ok.
- Boy:Ill pick you up after I get off and get ready ok?
- Girl:Ok. What time do you get off?
- Boy: In 2 hours and then I gotta go home and yeah get ready which takes about 15-20 minutes...
-Girl:hey...I thought you didnt have work today...
- Boy:One of my co-workers called in sick.
- Girl:Oh okay! So i'll see you around 7:30 then?
- Boy:Yeah! and babe?
- Girl:Yeah?
- Boy:I love you.
- Girl:I love you too!
- Boy:Ok my manager is like looking at me so yeah.... i gotta go.
- Girl:Ok bye.
- Boy:Bye.
*******************************************************
2 hours later...The guy drives to his girlfriends house and walks up to the door and rings the doorbell....
- Girl:Hey!(gives a kiss to her boyfriend)
- Boy:Wadssup.....you ready?
- Girl:Um...wait...let me get my bag and we can go ok?
- Boy:Ok.
They both watched a movie and ate dinner...once they were done eating, they headed back to the car but before she got into the car.......
- Boy:Wait! Can I blindfold you?
- Girl:Why??!?- Boy:Its a surprise.
- Girl:What kinda surprise??
- Boy:A big one.
- Girl:Okay but only if you promise me tat you will hold my hand while we're driving...
- Boy:I promise.
- Girl:Ok blindfold me.....So they drove off.........and then they stopped....
- Boy:Ok we're here!!
-Girl:Where??
- Boy:Wait let me walk you to the place!
- Girl:What place??- Boy:Somewhere!(and gives a kiss to her on the lips..)
- Girl:Baby!...The boy walks her to the place....
- Boy:Ok...let me take the blindfold off.
- Girl:Where are we??
He takes it off her and she opens her eyes and sees the view of the city and at tat same spot....that's where he first asked her to be his girlfriend......
- Girl:Omg...!(tears come down)
- Boy:Why are you crying?
- Girl:This is where you first asked me out...
- Boy:What are you doing the rest of your life?
(he asked on his knees and after he says that...behind him...in the air it says 'Will you marry me?' in fireworks)
- Girl:(tears come down faster)
- Boy:I wasnt at work when you called me...I was planning this whole thing!
- Girl:Get up! i cant believe i actually cried the other day because of him!
- Boy:Yeah? like REALLY REALLY cry.i was thinking of him and everything that happened,
- Girl:(kisses him) and i just started sobbing really hard
- Boy:Is that a yes or a no? looked like a goldfish when i woke up. haih
- Girl:Yes.
hah! as if any of this kinda things DO actually happen in real life. i havent smsed him for the past week.
sorry if im in denial right now. wow! a week is longg. and idk, i havent felt like smsing him all week.
i just....i dont really believe in all this happy endings kinda stuff anymore, maybe its because the thought of him makes me sad?
or maybe just right now. or i just feel like i dont wanna handle all these anymore. let god take control of my love life.
im just........haih. dont know what to say. you know what?maybe i am starting to get over him, you know, i think he has a gf, or so i heard from his friend. lol :)
there's this one i was just wondering if any of you has received it too?
here's a copy.
So it was their 7th month anniversary and the girl calls her boyfriend:
-Girl:I love you.
-Boy:Yeah I know everyone does!
-Girl:Really?
- Boy:Yeah...everyone of my friends that are girls tell me that everyday.
- Girl:Oh...but am I only your friend?
- Boy:No...you're my girlfriend...why?
- Girl:So when I say I love you I really do mean it.
- Boy:Yeah I know you do mean it...its just that you dont need to tell me that you love me anymore cuz I know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday.
- Girl:..........
- Boy:So wanna go somewhere tonight for our 7th month anniversary?
- Girl:Yeah...where?
- Boy:I dont know...maybe movie then dinner?
-Girl:Ok.
- Boy:Ill pick you up after I get off and get ready ok?
- Girl:Ok. What time do you get off?
- Boy: In 2 hours and then I gotta go home and yeah get ready which takes about 15-20 minutes...
-Girl:hey...I thought you didnt have work today...
- Boy:One of my co-workers called in sick.
- Girl:Oh okay! So i'll see you around 7:30 then?
- Boy:Yeah! and babe?
- Girl:Yeah?
- Boy:I love you.
- Girl:I love you too!
- Boy:Ok my manager is like looking at me so yeah.... i gotta go.
- Girl:Ok bye.
- Boy:Bye.
*******************************************************
2 hours later...The guy drives to his girlfriends house and walks up to the door and rings the doorbell....
- Girl:Hey!(gives a kiss to her boyfriend)
- Boy:Wadssup.....you ready?
- Girl:Um...wait...let me get my bag and we can go ok?
- Boy:Ok.
They both watched a movie and ate dinner...once they were done eating, they headed back to the car but before she got into the car.......
- Boy:Wait! Can I blindfold you?
- Girl:Why??!?- Boy:Its a surprise.
- Girl:What kinda surprise??
- Boy:A big one.
- Girl:Okay but only if you promise me tat you will hold my hand while we're driving...
- Boy:I promise.
- Girl:Ok blindfold me.....So they drove off.........and then they stopped....
- Boy:Ok we're here!!
-Girl:Where??
- Boy:Wait let me walk you to the place!
- Girl:What place??- Boy:Somewhere!(and gives a kiss to her on the lips..)
- Girl:Baby!...The boy walks her to the place....
- Boy:Ok...let me take the blindfold off.
- Girl:Where are we??
He takes it off her and she opens her eyes and sees the view of the city and at tat same spot....that's where he first asked her to be his girlfriend......
- Girl:Omg...!(tears come down)
- Boy:Why are you crying?
- Girl:This is where you first asked me out...
- Boy:What are you doing the rest of your life?
(he asked on his knees and after he says that...behind him...in the air it says 'Will you marry me?' in fireworks)
- Girl:(tears come down faster)
- Boy:I wasnt at work when you called me...I was planning this whole thing!
- Girl:Get up! i cant believe i actually cried the other day because of him!
- Boy:Yeah? like REALLY REALLY cry.i was thinking of him and everything that happened,
- Girl:(kisses him) and i just started sobbing really hard
- Boy:Is that a yes or a no? looked like a goldfish when i woke up. haih
- Girl:Yes.
hah! as if any of this kinda things DO actually happen in real life. i havent smsed him for the past week.
sorry if im in denial right now. wow! a week is longg. and idk, i havent felt like smsing him all week.
i just....i dont really believe in all this happy endings kinda stuff anymore, maybe its because the thought of him makes me sad?
or maybe just right now. or i just feel like i dont wanna handle all these anymore. let god take control of my love life.
im just........haih. dont know what to say. you know what?maybe i am starting to get over him, you know, i think he has a gf, or so i heard from his friend. lol :)
Thursday, June 5, 2008
jus thought of saying this.
i ate spaghetti for lunch!
is that good or wad?
oh no, i dont know what im talking about.
you know....there's one thing some guy in the ps i love you movie said that really stood out for me.
"its alright. its not your fault, its mine. i dod not really plan on feeling something for you, you know.. it just sorta happened. im sorry about that"
nice eh?
so if i were to change it abit, it would sound like that. just a little more dramatic.
"you know.its not your fault, its mine. i didn't really plan on feeling anything for you, it jus sorta happened. im sorry about that. im sorry, but i love you."
HAHA!
ok, another thing another someone said that really stood out to me is..........
*drum roll*
"GOD has planned someone for you in the future,
so if you flirt around with guys (or girls, if you're a guy) right now,
you're being unfaithful to that someone GOD has prepared for you....."
-pastor victor
lol. this is so random. haha.
is that good or wad?
oh no, i dont know what im talking about.
you know....there's one thing some guy in the ps i love you movie said that really stood out for me.
"its alright. its not your fault, its mine. i dod not really plan on feeling something for you, you know.. it just sorta happened. im sorry about that"
nice eh?
so if i were to change it abit, it would sound like that. just a little more dramatic.
"you know.its not your fault, its mine. i didn't really plan on feeling anything for you, it jus sorta happened. im sorry about that. im sorry, but i love you."
HAHA!
ok, another thing another someone said that really stood out to me is..........
*drum roll*
"GOD has planned someone for you in the future,
so if you flirt around with guys (or girls, if you're a guy) right now,
you're being unfaithful to that someone GOD has prepared for you....."
-pastor victor
lol. this is so random. haha.
random.
random update again.
the shop, ti:zed in queensbay that sells clothes (bedide borders is giving out
free spaghetti for every rm80 spent in a single reciept.
haha.
so anyone wants pasta?? head on over to ti:zed!
went to gurney yesterday with my mom and sis.
ate at BBQ CHICKEN. (chicken tasted like chicken form KFC)
then walked around, when to FOS and bought a shirt that said
RANDOM ACTS OF BLONDNESS
juz so random or coincidense?
also bought 3 dvds : PS I love you, pirates 3 and over her dead body.
PIRATED DVDS!
ps i love you is...haih. surely cry wan if watch.
oh and i suceeded in downloading o2ps!! yay. im playing again. haha but i have to say i got really bad after not playing for 2-3 months.
all you ppl out there who still has the o2Malaysia game client, pls take note that o2MY has closed down!! if you still wanna play ya'll have to download o2PS. new game client pn private server. but its in chinese coz it's new and they havent got the english one out yet.
this is the link.
ok, i donthave the link with me right now. haha. give it to you someother time.
or if you really want it, go to my friendster profile page (at my links).
then go see the groups part and click o2jam. look at the discussions board and the one that sayd "who misses o2jam malaysia?? wish you cud play again??.. join o2ps larr!!"...
yea that one.
then go to the second page of the discussion. and scroll down untill you see me "beotchgal" asking how to download, look at the reply from RONALD where he gives me the "how to play topic" link. click on the "how to play topic" and follow the instructions from there.
:)
i wonder if anyone else other than me plays o2jam.....
the shop, ti:zed in queensbay that sells clothes (bedide borders is giving out
free spaghetti for every rm80 spent in a single reciept.
haha.
so anyone wants pasta?? head on over to ti:zed!
went to gurney yesterday with my mom and sis.
ate at BBQ CHICKEN. (chicken tasted like chicken form KFC)
then walked around, when to FOS and bought a shirt that said
RANDOM ACTS OF BLONDNESS
juz so random or coincidense?
also bought 3 dvds : PS I love you, pirates 3 and over her dead body.
PIRATED DVDS!
ps i love you is...haih. surely cry wan if watch.
oh and i suceeded in downloading o2ps!! yay. im playing again. haha but i have to say i got really bad after not playing for 2-3 months.
all you ppl out there who still has the o2Malaysia game client, pls take note that o2MY has closed down!! if you still wanna play ya'll have to download o2PS. new game client pn private server. but its in chinese coz it's new and they havent got the english one out yet.
this is the link.
ok, i donthave the link with me right now. haha. give it to you someother time.
or if you really want it, go to my friendster profile page (at my links).
then go see the groups part and click o2jam. look at the discussions board and the one that sayd "who misses o2jam malaysia?? wish you cud play again??.. join o2ps larr!!"...
yea that one.
then go to the second page of the discussion. and scroll down untill you see me "beotchgal" asking how to download, look at the reply from RONALD where he gives me the "how to play topic" link. click on the "how to play topic" and follow the instructions from there.
:)
i wonder if anyone else other than me plays o2jam.....
Monday, June 2, 2008
being random again.
wads your blog add? honestly, im really freaking out right now.
i got nothing to do last year, when i was smsing with him.
wad? is asking for your blog add too much now? phone bill shot sky high.
has our friendship gotten to a stage where you cant even gimme your blog add
he got into trouble for that.
would just tell me who that someone special is? just the other day,
cant you just trust me with that little piece of information? he told me that his dad said his phone bill has to be less than rm50
is it that hard to just tell me? wad am i? a rival to you? messages he sent me for the month of may is 344 at rm0.15 per msg.
i thought i was your bestfriend? count that up. its more than rm50 already.
of coz i can understand that our friendship has gone on to be on very shaky grounds.
the earth wont stop shaking. i wish it would. not including him smsing with a bunch of other gals (or guys)
i know you have new friends.
but i want you to know that you were really one i could talk to so basically, i think he's in trouble. coz he hasnt replied me since june 1st. just a coincidense?
now that you're no longer there, im all alone. yea, so im scared coz between everyone he sms-es with, i THINK im the most. which makes me responsible if he's in trouble.
i feel guilty.
hah. you never thought you meant that much to me right?
i assure you im not a lesbian wad to do now? haih.
i just need someone to talk to stop smsing him? i'll die.
but even then i dont how to say what i wanna say anyways, he's going for camp tomorrow
i cant even explain things for myself right now "have fun" to him.
i keep making excuses to myself for things other ppl did i know i mean nothing to you.
it all might actually be true but do you know how much you mean to me?
all those things you said to me.(im not gonna list it out.lazy.)
but damn its hard to believe. it made me feel good about myself. it pumped self confidence as a girl into my blood,. and for once, i felt important in someone else's life.
words of someone i used to treasure it made me feel like i mean alot to someone.
do i still treasure you, that still remains a question but whether i do mean alot to you or not,i dont know.
im sure i still do. it remains a mystery, coz i know you will never tell me so.
damn i dont what i m talking about i wish you would, but i know you wont.
i'll just think that you;re lucky do you (generally means all of you readers) believe in imaginations? dreams? wishes?
coz you can be happy? well, i dont.
coz i noe it never happens once i think of it. i do not believe in dreams. i do noe believe in my imagination. i do not believe in wishes. i do not believe in wad i want to happen coz i noe they never will. its all a fantasy. even then, this fantasy sucks. coz it isnt true, it isnt real. it wont come to past and i KNOW it.
i got nothing to do last year, when i was smsing with him.
wad? is asking for your blog add too much now? phone bill shot sky high.
has our friendship gotten to a stage where you cant even gimme your blog add
he got into trouble for that.
would just tell me who that someone special is? just the other day,
cant you just trust me with that little piece of information? he told me that his dad said his phone bill has to be less than rm50
is it that hard to just tell me? wad am i? a rival to you? messages he sent me for the month of may is 344 at rm0.15 per msg.
i thought i was your bestfriend? count that up. its more than rm50 already.
of coz i can understand that our friendship has gone on to be on very shaky grounds.
the earth wont stop shaking. i wish it would. not including him smsing with a bunch of other gals (or guys)
i know you have new friends.
but i want you to know that you were really one i could talk to so basically, i think he's in trouble. coz he hasnt replied me since june 1st. just a coincidense?
now that you're no longer there, im all alone. yea, so im scared coz between everyone he sms-es with, i THINK im the most. which makes me responsible if he's in trouble.
i feel guilty.
hah. you never thought you meant that much to me right?
i assure you im not a lesbian wad to do now? haih.
i just need someone to talk to stop smsing him? i'll die.
but even then i dont how to say what i wanna say anyways, he's going for camp tomorrow
i cant even explain things for myself right now "have fun" to him.
i keep making excuses to myself for things other ppl did i know i mean nothing to you.
it all might actually be true but do you know how much you mean to me?
all those things you said to me.(im not gonna list it out.lazy.)
but damn its hard to believe. it made me feel good about myself. it pumped self confidence as a girl into my blood,. and for once, i felt important in someone else's life.
words of someone i used to treasure it made me feel like i mean alot to someone.
do i still treasure you, that still remains a question but whether i do mean alot to you or not,i dont know.
im sure i still do. it remains a mystery, coz i know you will never tell me so.
damn i dont what i m talking about i wish you would, but i know you wont.
i'll just think that you;re lucky do you (generally means all of you readers) believe in imaginations? dreams? wishes?
coz you can be happy? well, i dont.
coz i noe it never happens once i think of it. i do not believe in dreams. i do noe believe in my imagination. i do not believe in wishes. i do not believe in wad i want to happen coz i noe they never will. its all a fantasy. even then, this fantasy sucks. coz it isnt true, it isnt real. it wont come to past and i KNOW it.
oh great!
now i really hate astro!
i was watching this show called "she's too young" on hall mark and the screen went blank and said " the service is currently not available" ishk!
its a really nice show about young girls having sex and getting STDs. i dunno
interesting show. (actually iwatched it before.) haha
just some random thoughts.
i went to the hairdresser today! can you believe it? i think it has been like
at the very least 7 months since i went to the hair dresser. lol
i just went there to trim my fringe. [i'll post a pic up soon]
its shorter and i look almost like i did last time. lol.
and i look YOUNGER!! yay for me?
now i cant cheat myself into the cinema to watch rated movies. ishk
JUST JOKING. i'll never do that! :p
RANDOM
oh and i have this crazy want to become darker since my X (yea his name is 'X')
said i got darker, and i LOVE the sun!
minus the sweating, i think i would like the SUN to be my boyfriend. lol
yea, no joke, the big red (is it red??) SUN. lol.
wonder how im gonna hold his hand? (is it a 'she' or a 'he'? :p)
wow, i am random.
wad else? wad else?
oh, i had NO classes or training or dance practices today,
yea, i was ABSOLUTELY free for the day. so after church followed my mom to collect her contact lenses at
"RONALD TAI.....[bla bla bla]"
and that mr ron was bringing out eye glasses and it was love at first sight for me.
i saw this pair of glasses which was black and green (my fav colour, juz in case you didnt know)
and i practically had to BEG my mom to buy it for me and it costs rm370. negotiated and that pair of glasses became my xmas present '08 and bday present '09 from my mom. seeing as i just made my latest glasses 2 months ago.
thx mom!
so went and check my eyes and i dunno, wrong diagnosis by my past opto or something. lol.
PS. amazing how my optometrist could have the same surname as matthew and marcus. haha. maybe they're related.
[being random]
oh and i was just thinking about wad my friend said the other
"har?! you're saying you got no friends that know your heart wan ar?! you dont pour out your heart to anyone wan ar?!"
okok, im cutting the emo crap, but i think i really dont have wad we call in chinese a
"zhi xin peng you" [translation: know-heart-friend]
basically you get it right, that friend is supposed to know your heart and understand ur feelings and share them with you. cut the crap. they're your listening ear, your personal adviser and your shoulder to cry on.
i used to have one but she changed after going into PCGHS.
(im very sophisticated for my age.
so dont think that 12 year olds dont need know-heart-friends)
and right now, idk, maybe i really dont have a friend like that.
there's this guy he offered to be that friend i can share my heart with,
but he doesnt reply sms-es sometimes,
like when i really need someone to talk to, so wth right?
and second thing is, i sleep late and normally the time when
i REALLY need to talk to someone is really late,
like when everyone else is asleep. lol. so i dont talk to anyone in the end.
its all kept inside pf me, waiting to explode
(getting emo.....)
like it did the other day.
a simple shout "LISTEN!!", could bring me down to tears.
well i guess its because of all these emotional hurt i kept inside of me,
never letting it out, coz there's no where i can vent it to.
hurt from the way my mom treats me, hurt from what friends do,
hurt by a guy??
(its natural!!XD) im done emo-ing.
PS; the guy that offered to let me share my heart with him, he;s a really nice guy and he u nderstands me. lol. and he;s the same guy that said "har?! you're saying you dont have a friend that............................................" [scroll back up]
just another random thought
before i go rot on my lovely bed (is lovely the right word?)
i like hugs! from whoever it is. makes everyone feel good. feel like there's still someone there who really does care, no matter what.
random random random random random
notice my blog title.
random change for the random heart with all the random thoughts
that randomise miss random.
:p
i have no idea how many "you have a new email message from Friendster" i have reeived since i started this update.lol.
RANDOM
i know its a really long one, but please read? puppy eyes.
i spent like half an hour on this entry alone!
its raining cats and dogs! why aren't there and rabbits or hamsters?
fav word : RANDOM
logging out now. muaks
nitez.
no actually, it should be
morning!
2.20am
i LOVE the word RANDOM!
xoxo
Sunday, June 1, 2008
emo? dissapointed? frustrated? angry? fuming? furious? dunno wad to call this.
first things first.
i miss................
o2jam!!!!!!!!! damnit!
how can my beloved o2MY close down?? and now i have to go download o2PS.
which i cant! ishk. come on! end of holidays are only a week away! damn!
someone help me?
second things second. (huh?)
i dont really know why, or maybe i do. IDK
most of the time when i see a guy and a girl, (dont care whether couple anot)
thy're close to each other, back each other up, a shoulder to cry on, a helping hand,
a good listener to each other, being with each other when they're hurt, just being really good friends that are there for each other all the time.
for example, justin and sharon :)
[to sharon and justin: if you're reading this, i just wanna say, i admire you two! :) ]
okok, back to the main point, when i see things like that, i sorta feel 'rojak' feelings.
lol. admiration, jealousy?, abit of sadness, and oso happy for that two ppl. (whoever they are)
lol. admiration, jealousy?, abit of sadness, and oso happy for that two ppl. (whoever they are)
all these crazy thoughts just run through my head.
why dont i have a friend (who is a guy) who is oso that caring?
why cant that be me and him?? (huh?)
i dont know, thats just what i feel, and its really weird, coz i told him about it.about what i feel when i see this.
and he just said, "well, you should work hard to find some guy who would be there for you like that too.....dont just cling on to me.......im not the only guy in this world......."
i know, that makes it sound abit like he's my boyfriend (it does??).
but he's not. im happily single (happy? hah.)im just slightly mad at him.i think. he doesnt really reply my sms. maybe its because of his dad controling his phone usage, i dont know. and even when we meet each other, he doesnt even talk to me, its always everyone else who starts the conversation and we just join in.
i admit, im quite shy too. (me? shy? lol. thats a first.)
and the other day when he asked me to go play badminton with him, he did not even talk to me, play with me or even give a f***ing shit about me!. (i dont know why im getting so mad) all i heard him say that day was 2 words, asking me to get the shuttlecock. i was sitting on the bench, his bag was beside me, he came over to take something and change his clothes, and he did not even say a f***ing shit to me. damn it!
i need to calm down.
third things third
i miss my dance classes?? lol. yea. i did not go for contemp this week coz we were having RFC rehearsals. no hip hop today too, dont know why. no white snake dance practice too.
as for ballet and gymrama, ballet has a two week holiday break, and gymrama, coach is in terengganu for sukma.
GOOD LUCK to the penang gymnastics (Artistic and Rhythmic) team!
go for gold! penang boleh!
lol.
hey i can actually enter.
lol. problem solved!!!! dunno how. lol
RFC group photo. (click on it, can see bigger one. but of coz you already know that! :p)
i cant see me!!!! lol. someone cant keep his/her eyes off someone. lol.
took it from eulene's blog. swt"
someone cant keep his eyes off someone. lol. bottom most corner on the left. no hard feelings!!!!
and someone looks so blur. im talking about tim. obviously! senior paster!! :p hiao eh. summore dare say me hiao. hng! :p
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