I'm deepply, deeply, disturbed.

split personality? dilemma? i dont know laa.

mummy almost bought me a nokia Xpress Music 5730 just now, number + Qwerty keypad when i was in school but didnt buy la in the end, thank God, cause i dont quite like it anymore. but i was feeling a little down, coz the thought of having ONE surprise (i havent had surprise before) would be nice, the excitement, and all, then the other reasonable side of me argue, its not the right timing, the freaking phone cost more than 1000 and year end expenses so high d, not right timing, i dont quite like it anyway, my hunney 6131 still works well....see?? torn apart insidE!

then seeing all those happy couples out there, i cant help but think to myself, when will i be one of those happy couples, then i start imagining how i the perfect boyfriend would be, nice car, nice hair, nice smile , nice this and nice that, but on the other hand, i KNOW im so not ready for the roller coaster ride yet, gosssh what am i thinking??

torn apart inside. disturbed. on one hand i think my life right now is pretty simple, just me, God, family and friend. no liking anyone or what. on the other hand, its rather boring. gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!