got sooooo pissed off

in school today first two periods dance prac..then one hour later continued prac again..
then i said i wan to teach them the "battle part" of the dance..
then everybody like ready adee..
i was like "hurry! hurry! no time adee! 12 more days to audition!! u all wan to learn wan or not??"
then one of them said "nobody say dunwan learn oso!!"
then suddenly one of moi best friends said "nobody say wan to learn oso!"

i was so angry when i heard that..i said" ok fine! no need to learn!!" i stormed out of the hall go back to my class..(that time recess bell adee ring)..then take my things then i go back to the hall but i purposely walk pass the canteen..then my friends all were looking for me..
and i walked pass them but they all like mata sepek wan..cannot see me..haha
then i went back to the hall and use the stage and dance alone to try and calm down..
after recess i had to change back into school uniform summore so i went into class late..but good thing was science teacher..she dun mind wan..yay!

but nearing end of school that time i was not so angry ade la..
but still abit angry at moi best friend who said "nobody say wan to learn oso!"
but now, sitting here i dont think im still angry la..

i got soooo angry coz these few days so pressure..i scared later practise until like wan to die adee then during audition that time didnt get choosen then all efforts wasted..
coz our steps not really very easy oso..compared to other teams..(not that im proud or wad but seriously, the other teams de steps quite easy wan thats why they got time to teach 20 people!!)
so past one week i keep asking Commasow CliQue members to practise practise practise!!!

thats why my temper rise so fast! then oso things with the ex not going well..
haha
yesterday he asked me go online..
then i asked him to go read my blog the first post (heartbreak)
he read adee then he asked me "hEY why U bReAk uP wif Me In dE fiRsT plAcE??? den NoW u SaY u HeaRtBroKen... sry... i CaNt go bAc" so quite sad la..coz i still love him!!

so now im sitting here alone and jotting all these down..
hope you'll find it interesting..

i'll keep you updated!