vern sern

thanks for lending me ps2. dont worry, i will take care of it well =D

thanks to all who wished me, all you sweet ppl!

22 hours and 30 minutes to go

and...still counting.

3 days to go

and counting.

2010

eh, gotta wake up early wan ar?
walao. i didnt know.

2009 summary of event and happenings;

HAH. trust me to remember everything that happened. =.=

Breathe ;

We were still in high school
When I first met you
Even then you were the prettiest girl
That I ever knew
And we carved our name on
Everything that we could find
The way that all kids do
And although time has passed
I still get surprised
At the pulling in my chest
When I know you're coming by
If this feeling's proving anything
It's not everything
Is gonna change with time
You're still mine

Did you know when you're around
My heart won't it can't slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard
To catch my breath, to catch my breath

Don't ever ask me if I'm sorry
Or that I'm here with you
Baby you can bet
I don't regret the girls I never knew
Every day's another first
Another change for me
To fall in love with you
And I do:

Did you know when you're around
My heart won't it can't slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard
To catch my breath, to catch my breath

Oh.. when you're with me
I stop seeing
Any way to fail how do I explain
I try to tell you what I'm feeling
But how do I when all words pale

Did you know when you're around
My heart won't, it can't slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard
To catch my breath, to catch my breath

Did you know when you're around
My heart won't, it can't slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard

To catch my breath, to catch my breath
To catch my breath, to catch my breath
To catch my breath, to catch my breath

See I'm not into

Listen girl
Just let me talk to you
I just wanna be with you
So why should i play it cool
You and me, We got a chemistry
So i dont need poetry to say what ya mean to me

See im not into buying your affections
With a diamond on a necklace
Theres a realer way to do it girl
I dont need to throw you all these lines
Just so you know I know your fine im gonna come right out and say it girl

I love you, I love you
Whats wrong with saying it the easy way
I love you, I love you
Whats wrong with saying it the easy way

Pretty girl i dont wanna play no more
Been there done that before
I've never been so sure
About what i feel
Lets get it on for real
Why should i hold it back
When all i wanna say is that

See im not into buying your affections
With a diamond on a necklace
Theres a realer way to do it girl
I spend all the time i have with you
I never treat you bad
Aint that enough to show you
That you are my world

I love you, I love you
Whats wrong with saying it the easy way
I love you, I love you
Whats wrong with saying it the easy way

Ohhhhhhh i love you, I love you the easy way
I Love you ... (Yeah Yeah Yeah)

See im not into buying your affections
With a diamond on a necklace
Theres a realer way to do it girl
I spend all the time i have with you
I never treat you bad
Aint that enough to show you
That you are my world

I love you, I love you
Whats wrong with saying it the easy way
I love you, I love you
Whats wrong with saying it the easy way
I love you, I love you
Whats wrong with saying it the easy way
I love you, I love you
Whats wrong with saying it the easy way

I love you . . . The easy way

A little magic

To kiss and tell, it's just not my style.
But the night is young, and it's been awhile and she broke my heart, broke it right in two,
and it took some time but I'm feelin' like I'm finally ready to find, find somebody new

I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight
Maybe make a little magic in the moonlight
Don't wanna go too far just to take it slow
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big old world
I wanna kiss a girl

It's that moment when you start closin' in
First you're holding back, then surrenderin'
It can start a fire, light up the sky, such a simple thing.
Do you wanna try?
Are you ready to say good-bye to all these blues?

I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight
Maybe make a little magic in the moonlight
Don't wanna go too far just to take it slow
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big old world
I wanna kiss a girl

'Cause maybe tonight it could turn into the rest of our lives, oh yeah.
Are you ready? Are you ready..to cross that line, put your lips on mine??

(Put your lips on mine baby)

Do you wanna try?
Are you ready to say good-bye to all these blues?

I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight
Maybe make a little magic baby
Don't wanna go too far just to take it slow
But no one should be lonely, I shouldn't be lonely

How to break a heart

Since you're not worth my love
I haven't given up
I'm stronger than that
(I'm stronger than that)
And though my heart will break
I'm takin' back my faith
Cos right now my world is spinnin' too fast
But you won't be the end of me
If you were the one you wouldn't hurt me so bad
You gave me the world

Gave me the world to take it all away
All you left me was yesterday
And this space in my heart
Now it's slowly tearin' me apart
I'm takin' all that I learned from you
I'll make it something I'll never do
I can't be who you are
You taught me how to break a heart x 2

I'll make it through this pain
My dreams won't call your name
I'm stronger than that
(I'm stronger than that)
Cos I still know how to love
Know that will be enough
And this moment will fade into the past
You won't be the end of me
If you were the one you wouldn't hurt me so bad
You gave me the world

I'm takin' all that I learned from you
I'll make it something I'll never do
I can't be who you are
You taught me how to break a heart x 2

I'm taking back my faith
I'm taking back my life
I don't care for who you are
Cos you taught me how to break a heart
How to break a heart
How to break a heart
Cos you taught me how to break a heart

-Westlife

Shadows

Mornings after
Still lingers
Just waking up
I see a shadow of you
Making breakfast for two
I go driving
Past our place and
I see this girl walk by
I smell her perfume
For a moment I wish it was you
I'm not gonna tell ya
I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no
I'm tryin' to get over
I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes

But I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how we were
Of how it was
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you and memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough of your shadows

Four months gone
I can't feel you
I don't understand it
Where did you go?
I hate that you're all that I know
I'm not gonna tell ya
I'm not gonna say that I'm okay, no
I'm tryin to get over
I'm tryin' to get far away from our mistakes

You couldn't love me
So why won't you leave me
Shadows
Alone is the only place I want to be

I see shadows
Everywhere that I go
It's you, reminding me
Of how to love
I've had enough
I see shadows
Everywhere they follow
It's you, the memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough

Your shadows
It's you, the memories
Of how we loved
I've had enough of your shadows
Your shadows

-Westlife

Looking up at the stars, the peaceful night sky whispering to me.

Operation LOOK FOR THE 'SOH EE' in action

eeeeeeeeeeeekkkk. PAUSE!


Go outside your house right now, and look up into the sky. Look at how clear it is, wink back at the twinkling stars glowing in the black night sky, and think of all the things God has blessed you with =)

no, seriously, i mean it. look up in the sky tonight. its clear. no clouds. just stars. go outside your house, lie down, and its just you and the stars. then i am surely thinking of you coz you believed me when i said ITS A CLEAR NIGHT SKY TONIGHT. -.-




Look up, love, and when you see the stars glowing in the clear night sky, remember: you're always on my mind.

Still cant find the soh ee. MUMMMYYY!

what does it all matter?

Operation GET LOST 101 activated.

i LOVE packing ; NOT!

lastes minute packing i ever done. 11.45 pm then only i started wanna wash last minute clothes. sweat. pack until now. still not done. titi sms3. 5 days no handphone. cannot die la, but then just cannot contact ppl lo. =S

7th - 11th Dec

monday : went out with ema, met derek and benjamin. watched Love happens. those 2 sweet guys followed us two lovely girls everywhere we went after that. awws. Ema, LOVE your hair!

tuesday : seh koh at home

wednesday : at night followed mom and sis and cousin to hair dresser. charm cut her hair, i trim my fringe, since dyed 3 strips pink. YENG. make me wanna do niaa. ish! came home keep thinking of how to hide from discipline next year.

thursday : went hair dresser again. wanted to highlight pink. but keep changing my mind. in the end i just bleach. no colour. now its light brown, 4 strips. 2 on my fringe 2 on the side. nice!

friday : slept at 6.25 am. woke up 1.35pm. haha. vern sern ask me go gurney. ok lo he come my house, we take bus there, manatau, the bus say persiaran gurney. from my place, go ka queensbay>sungai dua>greenlane>disted>general hospital>times square>komtar>NWP>Chew Thean Yang>padang polo>Sunrise>GURNEY. finally! siao wan! 1 and a half hours on the bus then only reached! 2.45 to 4.15 on the bus just to get from my house to gurney. went in late to princess and the frog. after that dunno how wann come home. Ivy drop Khai Hern and me at RamaKrishna busstop. sit there a while, then decided to walk down to PFS busstop. chun chun we reach there then bus came d. take lo. haha. go back pisa, then KH's dad fetch back to his house. thanks for the chocolate raisins, mushroom soup, corn and ferrero roche! LOVES.

thats it la this week. youth camp coming d. so not gonna update d la one week. 14th to 18th.

See how much we've grown

Emanuelle Mah Thil Da

&

'Dralyn' Teh Ee Lyn

2007

2008

2009

2009

Ema, Lyn, Sarah

all these years we've been through together,

has been an amazing, amazing, experience for me.

and I trust it wont end here. =)

; all the joys we had, squeezing into one toilet cubicle when we were 9

; climbing up the sides of the wall

; Ema, i still remember the SPIDER! LOL.

; our sleepover club minus the sleepovers... "Boys are cheats and liars..."

; remember how the word KISS from the song mandy was such a taboo word??

; going to ema's house. water slide! caplang rice!

; seasons in the sun! goshhh wonder how much we sucked!

; our first dance together. practice at my house

; dancing to the dvd! LOL

; "dont stop, never give up, hold your head high..."

; remember Sean? remember the snap and my nose?

; "owww, my nose! "

; then came along DRAGON, RIDER, CHICKEN, TORTOISE

; rider gang..playing with handphones

; miss calling rider from upstairs

; rider gang 1, rider gang 2.

; running out to peek at them whenever they came out of the class

; boys toilet!

; koku time! purposely walk pass that room!

; HAZEL EYES! aaaahhhhh.....

; the broom remember?!

; rider playing the piano! 7 chords.

; daily life with nuggets, and wan tan!

; "eh eh, they walk alr, come, daily life ."

; jasper kicking my leg, and i turnaround too fast, OOPS!

; My humpss/.

; Lyn, dragonn!

; Ema, Quan fong!!

; me, JAsperr!

; and of course our 'legendary' std 6 dance, Never Say Goodbye

FUN TIMES. FUN TIMES. FUN TIMES.

and yes of course there were the blunders here and there, me crying..everytime

ema, always calm.

lyn, always giving in.

I love you !

PS : sorrry we didnt take any pictures together in

2004, 2005, and 2006.

Thanks for always being there for me, besties.

BFF // huggs

Its still too soon to tell, isn't it?

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

-Chris Daughtry

quick update

21st : nothing. church
22nd : penang bridge run. almost died. came home. watched tv, with lyn. then both took a nap, bathe went dewan sri. met yen ying. change your world update at fireBrands. *crooked

23 - 25th : JYR. update soon on fireBrands. norway won.

26th : at home. almost died too. nothing to do. watched friday the 13th. hahah. jason voorhes.
27th : went queens watched new moon with ema, lyn, wei, yih, shafiya * damn cute, and yih's bro. new moon BORING. wei and shafiya cant stop squealing when jacob came out. -.- not enough action. went FOS. spent 30minutes to one hour in the dressing room with ema and lyn. haha. fun.

28th : go church
29th : queens. bought one pants one skirt.

thats about it for first week of holidays

CGL is the one of the best things that has ever happened to me in my life, besides God.
i Love you guys! you make my life live-able.

She better hold him tight, and know she's lucky cause...

She's got everything that i'll have to live without

-Taylor Swift.

Of Cherylyn Adena Theseira's BRA and the broken tap


Cherylyn came back to school today. and yes she's the star of the story today. school oh school rocks. those ppl started to play with wet tissue. since bilik paip ada manyak sink. *Priliap!. hahaa. and somehow the tissues ended up in cherylyn's shirt. lol. and my shoe in the toilet flushing tank thingy. hahaa. then some one had some GREAT idea to dare cherylyn to tak off her lacy bra with the little heart shaped chain in the middle she's been talking about the whole day. LOL. deal this and that, finally she took it off, and hang it on the notice board. lol. then she stuffed it in her pocket went to the toilet to wear back. yun fang ini playful mia, go the next door toilet, climb up on the tap and look over the top of the wall . LOL. then 2nd to climb up on the tap nadhirah, then 3rd me, but sui sui i heavy like elephant the tap came out! lol. shoes all basah. dress all basah, run out of the toilet. half laughing half panicking. then came up with a story to tell teacher say, i go toilet, then wanna on tap time it flew out. told this story to ms teh. she believed, then all go toilet see la, the water gushing out from the lubang in the wall. all try to put back the tap head into the lubang, but cant! the water just splashes all over then yun fang dropped the tap into the toilet bowl, toilet lubang. hahaa.laughed like hell wei! thanks to MARISSA KEE PEI LING ; saviour of the day who put her hand down the toilet and took it, whooots! and started screaming for soap after that. haha. me and ms teh pulak walk round and round the toilet looking for the main tap but chui beh tiok. hahaa. so try again laa, put the tap in the hole, water not gushing d, then chun chun yun fang and nadhirah came with the cloth and plier, used it as hammer. and finally the tap stayed there. hahah. say hello to new plumbers of CGL - Nadhirah and Tan Yun Fang. hahaha. damn funny laa they all. playing with water ! come out everyone WET! all wet! hahaa. fun la dei. play more than fix! hahaa. laugh like what !

I'm deepply, deeply, disturbed.

split personality? dilemma? i dont know laa.

mummy almost bought me a nokia Xpress Music 5730 just now, number + Qwerty keypad when i was in school but didnt buy la in the end, thank God, cause i dont quite like it anymore. but i was feeling a little down, coz the thought of having ONE surprise (i havent had surprise before) would be nice, the excitement, and all, then the other reasonable side of me argue, its not the right timing, the freaking phone cost more than 1000 and year end expenses so high d, not right timing, i dont quite like it anyway, my hunney 6131 still works well....see?? torn apart insidE!

then seeing all those happy couples out there, i cant help but think to myself, when will i be one of those happy couples, then i start imagining how i the perfect boyfriend would be, nice car, nice hair, nice smile , nice this and nice that, but on the other hand, i KNOW im so not ready for the roller coaster ride yet, gosssh what am i thinking??

torn apart inside. disturbed. on one hand i think my life right now is pretty simple, just me, God, family and friend. no liking anyone or what. on the other hand, its rather boring. gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

streetlamps //

stepping in to the last week on school, i DREAD the coming holidays.
coz you see right go to school leh hor, every morning, set d, wake up same time, same routine, look at phone, then get up, take towel, pi zhang ek, then come out, dry hair, sit there blank awhile, then change uniform, then go out of the house, go school, walk here walk there, you know la. school. laugh here laugh there. then recess, choose something to eat, most of the time the same things. perhimpunan, go back class, after school walk out, take bus go home, bath, watch tv, online, sleep. thats all! everyday repeat toh eh liao. clothes pun no need to choose!

then now the si lang holidays come d. morning pun tak tau nak wake up what time, got what to do, stay home or go out? what time wake up, what to eat? WHAT TO WEAR. waah that one most tao hin eh. so see? HOLIDAYS SUCK MAJOR MUCH.

my love letter

school rocks as usual. went to school, sat with jin fo, claudia, tiffany, yin foong, jun whey, they all. lol. laughed so much. crystal and her 18SX / SG . hhahaa. err nothing much before recess, wrote the love letter, keep kena hit by mei's bola! after recess go computer. Mr. Stanley damn funny weih!! he was singing poker face in bm. gosssh. haha. din know he was like that eh. damn funnnyyyeh! lol. rained heavily after school. got alllll wett. couldnt make it to church coz bus come late, reach home late and friday jam summore. =X





i've been thinking. and suddenly i realise i miss those times i had someone to talk to. not just any someone, that special someone. No, not a boyfriend. i miss those days, where, everyday after school i couldnt wait to go home, because i knew i had someone to talk to. i miss smiling at the phone, looking so dumb. i miss that heart fluterring feeling of liking somebody// sometimes it feels all so empty inside. like my heart has been anchored for so many months. so many unhealthy things happening, sad stuff and all, and then i look back on those times, i could just skip around the school field, squealing, never stop smiling , laughing at everything, and i miss it. miss it all too much.

No, i do not miss one particular person, i just miss having a person.

Gibber a little

ed board jamuan today, err. food. nothing much. damn tired.. terletak dalam department cleaning pulak. neway, stomach not churning well, err. weather damn hot. sweat like crazy. distributed school magazines. helped the morning session. fang chi taught me photoshop basics. er. i dont know what im talking about. Danny has the love album deluxe edition! gonna get from him soon. dont know waht the balls im crapping about. blarrrggghddyy player.
not going jyr. sorry, eulene, will let you know why. gaaaah. dumb blog.

Sarah is in desperate need of someone who would spare me the patience of guiding me through photoshop.

pretty pretty pleassse =D

wei... how wei now?
tak tau nak blog apa. die d la my blog.
ish

sorry for not posting much lately..

err.. nothing much. westlife alot..
today.. bad day. loads of things happened. loads of ppl crying, being sad, unhappy. lots of things happening.
im sorry guys, i really am...

westlife - don't cha (live face to face tour 2006)
watching nicky bryne in the video makes me go higgggh!
hot hot hot hotttayyy! whoo! dontchaaa!

lol. westlife new album - where we are, nov 30th 2009.
anyone wanna buy for me ? =)

nights ppl. watch the video!

sorrry ppls! lazy to update much...

hmm....singing competition that day, dawn and i dance. dikir puteri. nice tradisional malay song.
then today nothing lo. ed board meeting 2 periods, then run around the school. play with ppl's grapes and carrots. then go kacau 2H drama practice. SORRY! xD it was fun! "we're soaring!! flyyyyiinng!!!" hahahaa.

to different person now

> who was the one that said can be friends again. lemma. if really can be friends again, then we would be talking k. kk. talk to other ppl can la, comment on other ppl can la, but thisFRIEND cannot la is it. friends my pretty arse la, friends. dont say can STILL be friends, coz we freaking aint friends now. friends dont do this to friends. dao di what you want, i already did all i can, but you still treating me this way, you think i very neng shou is it. IM NOT A ROBOT!!!!!!!! i got feelings k. treat me like im what?! your shitt ar. pkm. i've had enough of ppl treating me this way! SICK of ppl treating me like im invisible, coz i aint fucking invisible. cant see me? your eyes got problem, go get some specs. le~ imagine someone do this to you, what would you feel? try think with your own brain la k. use your hati abit. dont treat certain humans like shit, coz one day ppl will treat you like shit too, you want?

Eulene, i love you, this not for you ;)

i wonder.. what are friends for. define friends.
what makes you qualify as a friend of someone?
what does someone have to do to be your friend.

if the term "friends" are too shallow, then what about "good friends" or "close friends"?

what are they? how do friends treat friends?

>sigh. its so tiring, trying to be YOUR friend, but i still continue trying, because you're a great person. but its so, so tiring. i try to be close to you, i try to talk to you, but you just treat me differently, on a hierarchy, im one or two steps lower than you and your friends. i wonder why its just you. the others are fine, but i just wonder why you wont want to tell me stuffs, why you would tell everyone else, but me. am i that different? havent i done enough to deserve your trust? sometimes i feel so used, you only come to me when you need things done, but other than that, im just a shadow. its sucks, im telling you, it fcuking sucks. though it wasnt like this before, we were quite okay, then suddenly you de-ranked me to levels lower than where you are on the social ladder. i still have my friends, but i also want to be a friend of yours, who you can talk to. but no, you wont tell me stuff, you wont tell me whats going on. do you know i feel when you dont look happy? do you know, i still care. oh yeah, you probably would know, because you would hear from other ppl that i ask around about you and whats going on with you. i just dont get why, you wont talk to me. i dont get why im just your 3rd hand in work. it sucks! i try to be good friends, but you just treat me like im invisible! just because you're famous, and popular. whatever happened to when we played around? those time are gone, arent they, since you became more and more popular. gosh. i just hope that one day you will realise it. i'll still continue being your friend for now, anything you want me to help you with, i'll do it with an all willing heart, but at the same time, hoping and hoping, that one day you'll consider me a FRIEND. because friends tell friends important stuff, like you wont be coming for the reunion. recently i've given up trying to talk to you, because i know you wont talk back, but i still care, i hope you realise it one day, friend.

the screaming in my head is starting again.

This is MY blog

read the title. this blog happens to be mine and i have full rights to typed whatever i want, whenever i want.

so happens when i was posting the previous, "fcuked up " i was really feeling fucked up with all the crap that was typed out. i felt EXACTLY what i said i did. im SORRY im a freaking melancholy. im sorry i easily feel stuffs. im sorry i think too much. im sorry i always seem to be finding faults with myself. but thats just the way i am. and this blog is one of my main outlet. so mind my writing. if you're offended, let me know.

to . and ...... : at least have the balls to put your real name if you wanna comment. thanks

fcuked up ; i was just being very angry at myself. wondering why im now in this position. when i used to be there. didnt mean to offend anyone. i know im not normal like you all. i know im problematic and i need help. i'll admit that. my mind is tortured with my own thoughts. my moods are affected by my own mind. everything is internal. on the outside i look fine but there's a raging battle going on inside of me all the time. i can hear the screaming in my head even right now. i try to put up a strong front whenever im around you guys, all the #@$(&#@ but im still a girl on the inside. im still a weak little piece of shit that cant control my thoughts, my feelings, my actions. its agonizing. my head is always spinning around, always getting a headache,feeling as if my head is gonna blow up with all the thoughts running around. one moment i think that okay this is fine but the next, i want to commit suicide. i need help.

and writing helps me a little sometimes. so im SORRY to anyone i've offended along the way. im really sorry.

fcuked up

cant have the best of both worlds. realise im not one of them anymore. its all different now isnt it. just because i dont have the same type of friends as you all. just because i mix with different types of people. just because im more chinese ed. or hokkien what ever you call. just because im not PURE like you all. just because sometimes i have problems. just because i grew up different. just because im not that into studying. just because im more playful. just because i went away for a while. just because you think it was a mistake. jsut because i think its right. just because i was trying to help my friends out. just because we have different friends. just because i do some bad stuff. just because i cant stop. just because i have feelings for people. just because i like different people than you do. just because i dont look like you. just because im not someone big in position. just because im not a favourite. just because im not influential. just because im not doing what you told me to. just because i dont know how to do it. just because just because im depressed. just because i can get emo. just because i dont have your faith. just because i have my doubts. just because i can get angry. just because i have feelings. just because i cry. just because im not happy all the time. just because i let you down. just because im not what you expect of me. just because i enjoy my life. just because you think this is all wrong. just because i speak out what i think. just because i try to be honest. just because i dowanna keep it all inside. just because i go to sleep every night thinking all these stuffs. just because i dream this. just because i wake up in the morning to the same night sky. just because .just because....just because im not like you. just because I'M NOT YOU. Just because I'M ME.

Just realised I haven't thought about you lately.
I don't like you no more.

♥

Teardrops on my guitar

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

err, time to blog. where to start leh. hmm. my mummy merajuk-ing now. coz i say wan than mee not nice. ishh. umm exams are OVER! whoooots. lol. err. wedding last weekend, damn syok meet all the relatives, and BABY MANDA!! amanda i mean. so i cuttte!!!!!. everyone say look like me. look like i was a baby time, came home check my baby photo, really damn alike wei., photo coming soon. lol friday night dinner at ku ma's place...1 somehting ka go home. next day 6 oclock wake up. 7 go ku ma's house again, be ji mui. haha.watch the guys get played. so tired wei. haha. then came home after lunch took a nap, wake up get ready again. go dinner at Traders. so nicee. lol. amazing food. wonderful couple. neways, sat with justin, ness, sis, yee quan, nelson, pui yee, and 3 cousins who is ku cheong's brothers sons. whoooo.~~~ busy smsing that night. ada story. haha. then my prawn FLEW!. ishk. sia sui betul wei. LOL. after dinner went redbox. took da biggest room. LCD screen.Long long long couch. sing sing sin. reach home at 4. too tired wake up for church the next day. woke up lunch time went ku ma's house again. sit there the whole afternoon. waiting for baby amanda to come. she's adorable i tell you. after that came home around evening, starting to feel unwell. lol. im getting bored. haha.

congratulations to ruixin and yih liang =)

back to square one ke?
damn. shouldnt have done that. ki chia!

i just fell back into the deep dark pit i spent so much effort climbing a thousand miles out of.


lema, mirror rubiks gone 3 pieces.

Zhong qiu jie kuai le!! sorry dunno whats it called in english,
HAPPY MOONCAKE DAY ar? XD. duno la. pek guik chap goh.! big round white moon!

yue liang yuan, yue liang....somethingg. haha

DANNY!!!! lanterns together k tomorrow!! dawn's house. hahah

dun like ___ alr. now just as gooood friends, tau? dun like d, but the guan1 xin1 eh feelings is still there, as a GOOD FRIEND. =) understand?

yang perasan, janganlah terasa sangat, takkan nak cakap pasai awak. X)

wanna update ar...si liao lar. cant remember anything.
er..
monday. go back school. umm duno la. tuesday pun tak tau la. my things keep flying downstairs into the rain. damn pek chek. come home, emo nia. then wednesday slept at 9.30 woke up 10.50 the next day. first time so early. but no use pun. still so tired. aih dunno la. dowanna blog d.
need to calm down now....like sesak nafas. jsut now msn too many ppl. too fast. until hard to breathe. just wanna go love my o2mania. bb.

if by any chance, you still do visit my blog, i just wanna apologize with all my heart for all those offending blog posts some time back. im really sorry. i was wrong to say all those stuffs. i hope that you'll forgive me and not be angry at me anymore. wish we can still be friends like before. =)

back to school .
back to school.
back to school.
back to school.
back to school.
BACK TO SCHOOL.

whooooo~ tralalallala

Beautiful beautiful song.

a very meanigful song, and a beautiful video that made me cry.

the lyrics in the video are translated to english but the chinese version means so much more.

disclaimer : this song ISN'T pointed at anyone. no hard feelings

Chinese version :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J6fn3XIJPdA&feature=related


English version :
KISS-Because I'm a girl

picture of the night

ahahah! matthew!

i ♥ mooncake

thank you so much! X]

Kenangan terindah

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Before

after

mummy's boss' cat. damn cute.

you'll never guess what was going on in this pic.

surprise belated bday / primary mini reunion

title tells you what happened ytd. wheee~

yeah so it was Lyn and Wei's belated bday. hahaha, supposed to be at ema's house , but she's admitted hospital... get well soon ema! so changed to my place, waa fai ti fai ti clear up the place. lol. then the guys started coming.lol. so worried they'll get bored. LOL. but thankGod they entertained themselves. lol. who knows what they were talking and laughing so much about. lol. ying wei brought his whole collection of rubiks. can fall in love. hahaha then lyn and wei came, expecting nothing, thought just normal come my house chill watch movie, but, jeng jeng jeng, SURPRISE! sing bday song, ying wei play piano. haha then start eating lo. kena perli coz i cooked pasta.LOL. eat eat, take pictures, laugh laugh laugh, play mahjong, chor tai ti, o2mania, watch bloody valentine, eat pop corn. hahah. after most ppl went back, went outside the road with joshua, lyn and wei, ask wei keat take his ginormous bicycle come let me ride. hahah. almost fall down! lol. amazing amazing amazing day.

thanks to :
Emanuelle (even though you couldnt make it, you still helped alot! ily)
Pei Huah
Shyn Yih
Wan Wen
Matthew
Wei Keat
Ying Wei
Joshua
Heng Lin
YuHang
Yu Sheng

for helping us make the surprise a success! lol. lets meet up again some time. nyehehe.
and also thanks to matthew, wei keat and heng ling for teaching me chor tai ti. X]

gosssh, al of them change so much! LOL